Broken Hearted

Chapter 29

Chapter 29:

Dearest Cameron Chase,

If you a reading this I have successfully stalked you long enough to make you very worried or I have miraculously gotten you to be my boyfriend. I'm thinking the former, haha. 

So, This is a special part of my diary dedicated espeically to you. Cameron Chase.

The first time I saw you I was just so memorised you were this magnificent creature riding up on your black Harley, looking all sexy. I thought I would've melted right there if Jesse hadn't caught me in time. Then you looked at the 'popular' group of girls and my excitement died, he'd just like every other guy I thought going for the popular group. 

I was kinda just like whatever and I was ready to move on with my life... but you were always there niggling at the back of my mind like a worm eating a rotten apple. Not that I'm comparing you to a worm in any way, shape or form! But I just couldn't seem to shake you from my mind. 

A couple of months passed and you started going out with Raquel. Great. I think that was the lowest part of my life because somehow I kinda knew that the cutest girl would be a couple with the cutest guy. Jesse forced me to stop thinking about you and took me out on all these fun adventures to get my mind off you, but I was always thinking how I'd enjoy this place so much better with you. Stacey, do you even CRUSH? haha

Well schoool ended for grade ten and the school holidays were among us again and I was just so unhappy. I couldn't see you everyday from my convenient seat next to you and without proper stalking I wouldn't be able to see you for a while. I just started dating anyone I could so that I would feel something again but I soon realised that I was comparing everything they did to what you would do and I thought that I should like them for them and not because they look and do stuff similar to you so I broke up with them all which made me even more sad.

School finally came around again and I was so relieved. One, because now I was a senior and I was no pretty bad-ass and two, I'd get to see your sexy face again! EEK! 

Although you were there you were lip-locked with Raquel and I was pleased but dis-please at the same time. 

Then you broke it off with Raquel and talked to me for the first time at our lockers. It was one of the best times of my life. AND, just to top it all off YOU ASKED FOR MY PHONE NUMBER!! Like OMG! I was just so happy.

Then, your mother. I am so so sorry about her and I hope she is happy where ever she is. I must admit I was overjoyed to get that call at eleven o'clock. Despite the grim circumstances I was pleased I could comfort you in some way. 

I just sat on my bed while you visited your father and prayed it went well. Then I saw the white Audi and a guy strode up to the door all dripping wet. I ran downstairs and you collapsed in front of me. I think that was the most frightening moment of my whole existance, I still remember screaming for help as I ran my shaking fingers over your still face. But you came too, thankfully and I don't think I've been happier since that moment in time. 

Finding you in the bathroom stall when we were at your mothers was I think your breaking point and it was heartbreaking seeing you there... Your dad's a total dick by the way. Not dissing you in any way but c'mon, he's kinda the biggest douche I've laid eyes on and I've laid my eyes on a lot of douches, mind you.

So, that brings me up to now... Being the happiest girl on Earth. You being my boyfriend and probably the best kisses in the Universe, mwah! 

Now, seeing that you're reading this means I'm out at the current moment, shopping or at netball practice so I'd like to tell you something. You're amazing. You are one of the most amazing creatures that has walked the planet. Don't ever give up being you, I think I'd die if you stopped being you. 

Life doesn't end here for you! Go out and enjoy the world, don't let me drag you down. If it means dumping me, DO IT! Jump on a plane, go to... Italy! Or wherever you want. Just be craxy while you're young. 

And on that lovely note, I shall leave you with a parting statement.

I love you, Cameron Chase. Never forget who are. 

Stacey Carise Sun xx