The Light behind your Eyes (My Chemical Romance)

Chapter 10 October

A/N: Thank you all for keeping up with me, I appreciate it a lot. So this chapter might be a little bit too explicit, so hang in there for a little. Please take a minute to vote <3

October

Slowly we both healed from our tumble down the stairs, and much to our surprise Eddie and Roger never came back to fulfill their promises. I didn't know why, but I suspected it was just more of their mind-fuck. Keep us waiting, keep us scared. They actually started bringing food down to us, and I was allowed to share it with Frank. It wasn't much, a bowl of grapes here, a couple of bananas there, but anything was better than nothing. I grew accustomed to the tiny portions and my stomach didn't ache so much. I felt disgusting. It had to have been months since we'd been here, and I hadn't had a proper shower or been able to shave a thing. We had only the bathroom sink to wash in. It was fantastic. I couldn't have felt anymore sub-human than this.

Frank looked scruffy as well, having grown nearly a full beard. He bitched about how much it itched him, but I didn't tell him it made him look sexy as hell. We had no deodorant, so we were in the bathroom rinsing off our pits several times a day. I had finished doing just that when Frank motioned me over to the bed where he lay stretched out.

"Come here."

I walked over to him, and he held out his hand. I took it, and was taken aback when he pulled me forcefully down on top of him.

"Whoa, Frank. What are you doing?"

"I just need to know something," He said huskily. He pulled my face toward him and kissed me deep and hard. It made my insides quiver. I returned it, unable to help myself. After a moment, and before I lost all willpower, I pulled away.

"See? Why do you do that?"

"Frank..."

"What? You're so weird. One minute you're holding my hand, or cuddling up to me, or kissing me first. The next you can't even handle my touch."

"Exactly. I can't handle it. It makes me crazy, and I don't want to be the girl you cheated on Jamia with, just because your horniness overwhelmed you."

"What the fuck?" He jumped off the bed and walked several paces away. When he whirled around, his eyes were flashing. "You think I want this just because I'm horny?"

I shrugged. "Well aren't you? You haven't been able to..."

"Shut the hell up!" He was really yelling at me now. I'd never seen this side of him. "So you think I don't give a shit about you, I just basically need to get my rocks off." When I didn't say anything, he demanded. "Tell me, October, is that what you think?"

"Come on, Frank. Like you'd have ever looked at me twice in the real world. Even if we didn't have anyone else, I know you never would have. There are legions of girls that would give their right arm to be in my position, life-threatening situations and all. And I'm the only one here, so..."

"I would have never had the opportunity to meet you in the real world. But we're here, and I have, and the fact that we've had to lean on each other has made us grow close," Almost as an afterthought, he added, "Or at least I thought it had."

"It has! But...I don't know. I can't tell you how I feel. You wouldn't understand."

"How the fuck do you know what I would understand? Are you in my head? Do you know how I'm feeling?" When I shrugged, he covered his eyes with his hand and shook his head. "Wow. You really piss me off."

"Frank, it's coming out wrong. I don't mean to make you sound like an asshole..."

"That's sure as hell what it sounds like. You were the one that started this. You kissed me first."