Of Fire and Ice

C.53

Nothing has really happened the past few weeks other than Ari and I working on the egg and me disappearing from 5-7 pm every other Thursday night.

The team has definitely noticed me leaving at five thirty and coming back around seven thirty. They've asked plenty of times too, I just wasn't sure if I wanted to tell them I was seeing a therapist.

Ms Williams has also narrowed my diagnosis to antisocial personality disorder, mild depression, and severe trauma.

I don't know what it is, but I feel so comfortable with her, and I feel as if I can tell her about anything. Literally anything. She even understands how I may feel that mine and Grey's relationship is being pushed by other people, and what I can do to turn it around.

"Would you like to bring Grey here to see if we can have a few sessions of couples therapy?" She asked. "Honestly, I haven't even told anyone that I'm in therapy." I sighed a laugh when she brought it up.

I was now walking down a lonely road, going back home from therapy, wiping my face free of tears that were still falling. This session had been about my parents and sister, and Ari of course.

I took a moment outside of the door and wiped my face one last time before walking in, planting a smile on my face. Natsu and Grey were in the living room with Lucy and Ari and Happy. "Hey, where have you been?" Natsu asked. "Nowhere. Whatcha doing?" I asked. "Just talking." Lucy shrugged. "Cool. Well, I'm tired, so I'm going up. Grey, you staying or no?" I asked. "Sure, I'll be up in a bit." He nodded, then, as I was going up the stairs, he caught my arm.

"You've been crying. Why were you crying?" He asked and all of their heads snapped to me. "I haven't been-" I started to say. "Don't lie to me. Now answer me." He said and I tried to pull away. But his grip was tight.

"Henley, please. Stop locking us out. We all care about you and want to be there for you, but you're making it very hard." He sighed. I just kept trying to go up the stairs. Grey just wrapped his arms around me and carried me back down and sat me between him and Natsu.

"You're not allowed to move from that spot until you tell us what's up." Grey said and I shrugged and folded my arms on my knees, resting my head on them. "I just won't talk, then." I hummed.

"Would you stop shutting us out? We're a team, Hen. You're going to tear us apart." Natsu said and I sighed and buried my face in my arms, feeling tears start to fill my eyes again. I'm always at fault for something.

"Honestly, we're just trying to help you and be there for you, but you're so difficult. We can't be a team if you don't talk to us. Do you even consider us friends anymore?" Natsu said and I stood up, making my way to the stairs. "Hey! You can't-!" He reached for me and I pulled away.

"I was going to tell you guys what was up, but then you had to go and fucking push!" I yelled at Natsu, and he saw the tears streaming down my cheeks. I saw his face, so confused and hurt, and Grey's and Lucy's looked shocked.

I stormed up to my room and locked the door before curling up on my bed for uncontrollable crying.