New beginning lesbian story

This was not the plan

3 months later
Shawns pov: "baby how come your never just at home anymore like you use to be when we first started dating! And when we moved in here! You been gone non stop for the past month!." I asked Nicki as she was putting on her black leather ugg boots.
"Because I've been busy! I have a job Shawn! Just like you ! My job needs to be done and sense I'm dropping pink Friday the come back very soon I have places to be !." Nicki said kissing my lips lightly. The love and attention she use to give me was started to fade away. "That's understandable I guess!." I said sadly as a pulled out my lap top. "You ok?" Nicki asked as she buttons up her black pea coat.
"I'm fine! I just wish I could spend some time with my girl that's all! But I understand your job is important!."
I said as I started to make some changes to my website.
"Yes! Very important! I'd brake so many hearts and hurt so many feelings and let millions of people down if I stopped doing my job for just one second!."
Nicki said grabbing her all black Chanel purse from the rack that hung behind our bedroom door.
"I fall under every category!"
I said under my breath so she wouldn't here me. "I have to go bae! I'll see you next weekend!."
Nicki said as she ran for the door.  "I love you!".
I said to myself as I looked at her picture that sat on my glass nightstand.  I'm not sure why she didn't say it but hopefully she would call to tell me. I was honestly so over all of her business trips all over the place I couldn't see her as much. Only when I had the time to fly in and fly out of places to support her.
After I had finished fixing my site I got ready and headed to my warehouse where all the products for my clothing line are held. I took roll and made sure things were going right and sense everything was good I headed to the mall to do some shopping for Nicki birthday.
I bumped into the wrong person!.
"Hey!" Tiea said as she was pushing the stroller with little arevaya in it. "Hi! I'm not really supposed to be talking to you !." I say trying to keep walking but Tiea took my hand.
"What's the matter Shawn?." Tiea asked me.
"Nothing I'm ok! Vay is very beautiful by the way!." I said as I tried to walk off agin.
"Yeah I been meaning to give you this!!!." Tiea said handing me a paper from the pink diaper bag that stated I was arevayas parent.
I was super shocked but at the same time I had already felt it in my gut. I handed Tiea the paper back and I smiled at baby arevaya.
"Can I hold her?." I asked Tiea as she nodded her head. As much as I felt she was mine I just couldn't bring myself to be apart of her life.
"Tiea! I know she's mine but listen! I can help take care of her give you any money you need!!! So she's ok but I can't be in her life!."
I said as Tiea looked at me heated . "What the hell do you mean you can't be in her life?."
She asked as we sat down.
"Look!!! I love Nicki!!! This is going to hurt her to much!. I don't want to be in this child's life!!! I'll need you to keep your mouth shut I don't want people knowing she's my kid!. And definitely don't want Nicki knowing!."
I said as Tiea shook her head at me.
"You are so fucked up!!!! I don't even want you in her life!!! Give me my damn baby! We won't be needing anything form you!!! And I hope Nicki does find out so she can fuck you up for keeping it from her.!"
Tiea said as she walked away from the bench. I few seconds later nickis friends walk up to me.
"Shnatae!!!!! I know you wasn't just talking to miss thang!!!." Sharika said pointing her finger. "Yeah you know you wrong!." Nickis other friend Justin said. "Y'all get off her back!" Tyeasha said sitting down next to me. "Thanks Ty!" I said as i crossed my legs. "I wasn't I saw her and we had a quick conversation about why I can't talk to her no more!." I say shaking my head. "Well why you looking so hurt?." Sharika said.
"Well you know that feeling you get when you love somebody and you have to let them go because it's best for you!." I said as they all nodded !. "Yeah that's how I feel! And it's even worse because I don't know if I made the right choice!.." I said as they all looked at me confused. "You talking about Onika?." Tt asks. "No I'm not talking about her or Tiea !!!" I said standing up. "Then who?". Sharika said. "I can't tell you that!!!!." I said walking away.
As I got in my car I started to second guess my choice about letting go of my very own child.
I had realized if I didn't let her go is I'd lose Nicki, but in reality it should be my child over everything. It was all too much for me at the moment so I decided to just go home and sleep things off.
A few days pass and Nicki finally calls me.
(Conversation)
Shawn: "hello?"
Nicki: "hey, what you up too?"
Shawn: "nothing!"
Nicki: "really? That doesn't sound like you!".
Shawn: "well I just got a little down time that's all!."
Nicki: "oh ok, I miss you babe!."
Shawn: "I miss you to!."
Nicki: "hummmmm you don't sound like you miss me to much! You ok?"
Shawn: "I'm fine I guess!,"
Nicki: "well I'll be home later this week!,"
Shawn: "that's good!, I can't wait to see you!."
Nicki: "I can't wait to see you ! I can't wait to smash!."
Shawn: "yeah?. .... How is your stomach I know you said you felt sick and it hurt before you left last week!."
Nicki: "it's fine it only hurts a little now I just can't keep any food down! I have a stomach flu!. I've been throwing up a lot!."
Shawn: "you sure it's the flu? You sound pregnant!!!."
Nicki: "no it's the flu I Went to the doctor earlier today!.  They game me nausea medication ! And told me to get a ton of rest drink a ton of water!."
Shawn: "oh ok! Well I hope you feel better if not I'll take care of you once you come home!."
Nicki: "ok! Well I gotta go baby! I love you I'll talk to you later?."
Shawn: "ok!!! I love you to!."
(Hangs up)

Nicki pov: "I thought you said you are pregnant Nicki!!!!" My manger angle said to me as she sat by me. "I am but I don't know how to tell Shawn!". I said looking at out picture on the cover of my phone. "Well you definitely shouldn't have lied to her!!!!." Angle says standing up. I thought to myself about it for a moment. I just wasn't sure if Shawn wanted to have a baby right now. It took her long enough to even move in with me. I started to think about it over and over agin!. I was four months pregnant and not sure what to do.
"Nicki your on in 10!!!!" My manager said as my stylist and hair dresser fixed me up.
"Ok thank you!" I said looking back at my phone. A baby was really not apart of my plan. And I know for a fact Shawn wasn't ready.