New beginning lesbian story

Depatred

Shawns pov:
I felt so bad  for telling Nicki we needed a brake but that was the best thing for us at the moment. I know it hurt because she just cried to herself but it was the right thing to do in my mind. If I would have slipped up behind her back any more than I already did she would have been pissed off and that would have turned us into enemies. All I wanted was a brake until I got rid of these odd feelings I had with Remi.
"Nicki this is for the best! Please stop crying.!" I said to her as she looked up at me in anger.
"You want me to stop crying when the love of my fucking life is trying to leave me for some hood rat bitch that just came out of the blue!."
Nicki said standing up and getting in my face.
This is when she had it all fucked up.
"Onika I'm not leaving you for anyone! I'm not getting into a relationship with her! I'm just trying to get past this thing what ever it is that I'm feeling! If I wanted Remi I could have her! I would have asked you for a divorce instead of a brake! Remi is not what I want!!! I want to take a damn brake so that I can get this Remi shit out of my mind!!!, you not fucking understanding me!"
I said as Nicki started tripping on me agin.
"What ever Shantae your still ripping this relationship apart because of some girl! You don't even know her like that!"
Nicki said as I shook my head and the girls came downstairs.
"Wipe your face Onika! We not fighting in front of the girls!."
I said as they made there way to the kitchen.
"Morning mommy and moma!,"
They both said as we hugged and kissed the both of them.
"Hey babies!,"
Nicki said glaring at me. I knew she was mad but she could really chill out. It wasn't that serious. This was only a brake so that I can get my focus back on my wife and off of Remi but Nicki wasn't understanding that.
The girls sat at the table and ate as Nicki started cleaning. I walked away and went inside of our bedroom to get dressed.
When I came back down the girls had been watching tv Nicki had them dressed and ready for the day.
"Moma you ok?" Taniea asked Nicki as she was scrolling on her phone still crying and sobbing.
"I'm fine baby! I just don't feel good! Go play with your sister!,"
Nicki said as I sat next to her.
"Nicki it's ok everything is going to be ok! Why do you keep crying?",
I asked her. I was just confused because she was really over reacting about the whole thing.
"Leave me alone Shawn!,"
She said to me still scrolling on her phone.
"Ok fine but you gone stop acting like that in front of the girls because they don't need to see us argue! And they don't need to see you cry! So stop!,"
I said standing up about to walk away.
It wasn't long before she clapped back. She really just can't keep her mouth shut.
"Shantae you must not fucking get it!!! You keep telling me it's ok! When it's not ok!!! I told you it was whatever so we can get past this but you wanna leave and you think it's ok! It's not ok!!! I don't want you to leave! This is frustrating as fuck!!! "
Nicki said walking past me and heading up stairs.
"Mommy your leaving?."
Brandy asked me holding her Barbie in one hand and a dress in the other.
"Yeah! Why you leaving mommy?,"
Niea said setting her iPad down.
"I'm not going anywhere babies! Moma and I are just having a misunderstanding about something! But I'm not leaving! Ima be here when you wake up and when you go to sleep! Don't worry! But can you guys go down in your playroom! Ima go talk to Moma!."
I said to the girls kissing them as the nodded.
"Onika!!!!."
I yelled after trying to open our room door but it was locked.
"Go away leaver !!!!!!"
Nicki yelled and I started laughing because what the fuck is a leaver.?.
"Onika !!! Open this door please!"
I said as she cracked it just a little.
"If I let you in are going to leave?."
She asked me sticking her lip out. She really acting like a little baby.
"Nicki I wasn't going anywhere in the first place! We can be on a brake and live in the same house! We can do what we do the same every day with out a title! ."
I said as she opened the door.
"I still don't want a brake ! Because a brake means we not together! And if we not together then that gives Remi lead way and gives you freedom to do what ever it is that you wanna do! And what if you end up feeling Remi more then me and what if you forget about what we have then I lose you cuz I let you take a brake that you don't even need in the first place.! I'm not Finna let Remi take you from me!."
Nicki said as tears was streaming down her face.
"Bae you really think somebody can take me from you? Remember who the hell you are!!! Ain't nobody taking me from you! I just don't think it's right for me to have feelings for you and remi all at once! If it helps your heart feel better we can make rules! !."
I said as she looked up at me and smiled.
"Ok! Rule number 1 I make all the damn rules!."
Nicki said as we both started laughing.
"Ok babe that's fine! What are they!."
I said as she started speaking. She counted on her fingers as she made them up.
"1, .....no fucking, no kissing , no hugging , no touching!!!!!,
2.......no talking to her no texting her and not communicating with her!."
"3....you are not allowed anywhere around her !!!, period!."
"That's it babe!,"
Nicki said as I started laughing but she was dead serious.
"Onika I have to talk to her she's a client!,"
I said as Nicki shook her head.
"Nope! Not until our brake is over! You gotta listen to my rules!."
She said as I shook my head.
"Fine!."
I said as I gave her a hug. She felt a lot better I could see it in her smile.  But something still had to give in my mind. My phone started ringing and it was Remi.

(Phone call)
Remi : "Shawn come stay the night?"

Shawn : "um yeah what time you want me to come?"

Remi : "around 9/10 I should be home from work by then! "

Shawn : "ok ill be there!"

(Hangs up)

"You can't fallow rules ?"
Nicki said coming back into the room. She was listing to my conversation the whole time . I hated when she do stuff like that. It makes me feel like she don't trust me.
"Why you listing to my conversation Nicki? Here you go with this trust issue shit!"
I said as she cocked back.
"And here you go wit this liying sneaky shit! Fuck that Shawn we not doing this! I'm not playing this game with you!"
She said getting pissed off.
"Who said this was a game! And I dont want to do this either that's why I want a brake because I'm clearly feeling someone else!"
I said as she got loud with me.
"Why the fuck are you even letting that happen in the first place!?, we posta be married ain't no way you should have feelings for nobody but me!" Nicki yelled as I shook my head! 
"Nicki it's not my fault she started sending  flowers and doing little things that make me feel good! It just happened maybe you should take lessons from her!,"
I yelled back. Nicki was really testing my last nerve.
"So you saying I don't make you happy anymore?" She said kind of calmly of corse with the smile on her face them at meant she was very aggravated . My last words may have hurt her feelings or upset her a hole lot more.
"I guess not!"
I said as she shook her head and walked away . At least I thought she did. She had walked over to my side of the room and went inside my closet.
I followed her to see why she did so.
When I entered my closet all I heard was ripping fabrics and nickis laughing.
"What the hell are you ripping up my close for???."
I said trying to take them out her hands as she kept a ripping them apart.
"Get away from me!!!,"
Nicki said snatching away from me and throwing my clothes all over my closet. She had walked out of the closet for a moments and I looked around at some of my clothes thrown all over the floor.
"I'll show you unhappy!",
Nicki said as she came in with a bag of sugar in one hand and a jug of bleach in the other.
she started pouring both of it all over my clothes.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
"Nicki why are you destroying my stuff!!!!," I yelled. I was getting more mad by the second.
Nicki knew that my wardrobe means everything to me. I'm a clothing designer so of corse fashion is like my world.
"Just like you taking something I care about away from me I'm doing the same for you!.""
She said smiling at me once agin.
"I'm not taking anything from you what are you taking about!!!,"
I said as I fallowed Her back into the room where she was throwing all of my perfumes and jewelry from my vanity on to the floor.
Before I knew it all of my belongings were history.
"That's enough you just ruined all of my clothes Nicki! You could have handled this a different way instead of acting like a crazy bitch!!!"
I yelled as Nicki started throwing stuff at me. It was early in the morning and she was just tripping.
"who the fuck you calling a bitch!!!."
She said picking up the lamp on her night stand and tossing it at me!. I'm not sure why she was this mad but I can't handle it.
"Nick stop!!!!!" I said as she came up to me and started hitting me.
I was blocking her hits as best I could because I didn't want to get physical with her.
"Ok I'm leaving!!! I started off only wanting a brake but I'm leaving your crazy ass!!! I want a divorce!! I can't be with someone like you!!!."
I said shaking my head as Nicki stopped hitting me and started crying.
"We'll leave then!!! I don't give a fuck!!! Go marry that bitch Remi !!! I hope she can make you happy!!!."
Nicki yelled as I made my way down stairs.
"Maybe she will!! She already does anyway!."
I said trying to make Nicki mad on purpose.
I grabbed my keys and the girls and We left.
I want planning on coming back anytime soon.

-daymn