Torn in Two ❉ j.j

Ch 21 // Awkward

-Jesy POV-

I heard Johnsons familiar car engine outside my house. I raced downstairs and yanked the door open. He got out as I walked down the porch steps.

"Hey." Jack smiled. I jogged to him and threw my arms around his neck just as he picked my up, swinging my legs around his waist.

"I missed you." I sighed and held him tight.

Jack chuckled. "I missed you too." I still held on as he walked up the steps into my house, shutting the door behind us.

When we were in the hallways, I hopped off Jack and pulled my shirt down. He stood close to be - running a hand through his soft blonde hair.

"I know you're a bit upset." I began.

Jack rolled his eyes. "I don't care about that, I don't want to talk about it."

I moved closers and ran my hand down his cheek and to his neck. That was his sensitive spot - he shivered under my touch.

"No more talking." I nodded and pressed my lips to his soft pink ones. My heart burst at the feeling of our mouths moving in sync - passionately.

Jack picked me up gently as carried us to my bedroom. Every meet led to us having sex but it was one of the ways we could express our feelings. I made him feel good and he did the same. It wasn't lustful.

We entered my room - Jack shut the door without breaking our kiss. Out lips slowly moving in sync - making my heart race.

Jack pushed me back onto my bed, pulling my shirt off immediately and leaning down to plant soft kisses on my boobs. His hands undid my bra and he threw it somewhere behind me.

He paused and glanced over my body making me squirm. I moved my hands to cover my bare chest.

"Don't." Jack whispered moving down my arm slowly. "I love your body. Its perfect."

I blushed. "You're supposed to say that."

He shook his head. "I wouldn't wanna touch you all the time if I didnt love what you have baby."

I smiled as Jack gazed at me seductively and unbuttoned my jeans - taking my undies with in one go. He licked his lips before going down - spreading my legs open too.

"Ohhh Jack." I whimpered when I felt Jack kiss me. His lips gentle slid over my tingling skin. Jack slowly inserted his tongue into me, making my thighs tighten up. I felt like screaming when he make circular motions inside me.

"God - " I started but my breath caught in my when I heard a knock on the front door and a familiar voice.

"JESY!" Gilinsky yelled. "Its me, Jack!"

"Holy shit." Jack looked up and got off of me immediately. I scrambled for my clothes and so did Jack - we dressed at top speed and headed downstairs.

Jack threw out books across the living room coffee table so it looked like we were studying. I flattened my hair and opened the door.

"Hey." I flashed the most non guilty smile.

Gilinsky pecked my lips, I almost pushed him away but reminded myself that he is my boyfriend.

"Johnsons here?" He asked walking. I forget that his car was in the driveway.

I nodded. We walked into the living room to find Jack pretending to be working some science equation out. Of course I didn't know it was science because I said the wrong thing.

"What you guys studying?" Gilinsky asked dropping his backpack on the couch.

"Math." I said while Jack said, "Science." at the same time.

"Both." Johnson chuckled. "Tackling both today."

Gilinsky frowned. "Jesy, you told me you were gonna help me today. And J, you said you had a date today."

"You do?" I turned to Johnson and it sounded more harsh that I intended. I quickly cleared my throat. "I mean, of course he does...he needed me to give him some advice."

Gilinsky chuckled. "That's my girl, always so generous."

Johnson smirked at me then got up and stuffed his books in his bag. "Alright well I should get going."

"I'll walk you out." I said. "Last minute date advice."

"And I gotta pee." Gilinsky walked down the hallway to the bathroom.

Jack and I walked out, I felt relieved that Gilinsky didn't suspect anything. I still found it weird that hr couldn't put two and two together.

We reached Jacks car. "Damn. I can still taste you on my lips baby."

I blushed. "Stop Jack! That was pretty close."

"I know." Jack ran a head through his soft blonde hair. "We'll figure this out later okay?"

"I love you." I hugged him quickly.

Jack sighed. "Baby I love you so much."

And then he got into his car and drove off leaving me with someone I didn't want to deal with now. I mean I love Gilinsky but so much has changed since his accident. I'm not the same girl - can't he see this.

"Baby." Gilinsky smiled when I was back in out living room. He sat on the couch with his biology book open and patted the space beside him.

"Wanna get started?" Gilinsky asked when I plopped down casually beside him.

Gilinsky leaned close. "Id like to get started on something else." And his fingers traveled along mg thigh to my zipper, making my voice waver.

"Uhm maybe - "

"I missed your touch." Gilinsky pecked my neck, sucking on the skin. But all I felt was pure weirdness.

Should I pretend?

"Jack - "

"I should make you scream that name, don't you agree?" Gilinsky said against my chest. He had pulled my shirt lower so he could kiss me.

I gulped. "I don't think you should."

"You're right." Gilinsky chuckled. "Your mom might be home soon."

Its when his hand slipped down my pants that I lost it.

"Stop Jack!" I burst out angrily.

Gilinsky moved back so fast, it surprised me. He looked at me with confusion, hurt and also a bit of anger. The awkward tension hung in the air now, I wish I hadn't done that.

"Whats going on Jesy?" Gilinsky asked looking offended.

I sighed. "I don't feel well. Its something I ate. I'm sorry."

Gilinsky nodded. "I shouldn't have done that, I just thought you'd wanna...since we haven't had sex for weeks."

I looked away. "I'm not up for it now."

Jack understood. I tried to break the strange tension. And we actually got to studying.