Ch 23 // Can't Do This

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-Jack Johnson POV-

My fist was balled as I stood before the doors at Burger King with Jesy by my side.

"Hey, calm down." Jesy placed her hand on my arm gently - as if I would snap at her.

My shoulders relaxed under her touch - she had that power over me. I let out an exhale slowly. I don't even know why I became so angry.

"Gilinsky hated those people and now he's hanging out with them." I said to Jesy who obviously knew the story.

Gilinsky and I had always had trouble with the snotty squad at our school which consisted of a few guys and girls. Audrina was apart of that crew too - so you can imagine how much I love to stay away from that crew.

"And now he's hanging with them." I heard Jesy whisper. "Maybe we could go somewhere - "

"No!" I said firmly. "Let's go in and meet G's new buddies."

So I grabbed Jesy's hand firmly and we walked into BK together. But as guessed, we unlinked hands as soon as we stepped in. The realization that we weren't a couple always hit me like a tonne of bricks - and the fact that she is actually Gilinskys makes it worse.

We pretended to not see them as I ordered for Jesy and I. I could tell Gilinsky noticed us because his group became silent and I fekt the stares on my back.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom." Jesy hurried off. I think she felt the tension rise - and wanted out quickly. I felt bad for her because right now she was choosing me over Gilinsky.

I was waiting for our order when Gilinsky came strolling towards me with his hands in his pocket.

"What are you doing here?" Gilinsky asked - a nervous tone in his voice. I couldn't miss it.

I raised a brow at him. "Hello to you too bro."

"Don't play that - "

"No! You quit playing here G! Why are you hanging with those people when you know I don't fuck with them." I said not even raising my vouce . "All the drama they caused was beyond my explanation."

"So?" Gilinsky asked. He looked over my shoulder to see where Jesy was probably.

"That's why you're MIA. You're with this clique that isn't you...you're just changing." I said sadly.

Gilinsky rolled his eyes. "I don't care alright. Ever since my accident you haven't been the same with me! What are you hiding?"

My blood ran cold. "I - I'm not hiding anything."

"Then what is it that you aren't telling me J? We used to be close." Gilinsky shook his head. "You and me too Jesy."

I felt Jesy presence behind me, small and probably ready to cry from the guilt. Nobody knew about us - so I'm sure Gilinsky doesn't know. He couldn't know.

"And now we're all just separated and I don't understand why." Gilinsky shrugged and stuffed his hands in his pocket.

"Jack!" We heard one of the guys yell for him - they were leaving. "You coming bro?"

I almost gaged. Gilinsky turned to face us.

"We'll talk later man." He just nodded at me but reached out to hug Jesy and kiss her forehead. I watched his eyes close as he held her - the love was real behind that.

Then he walked back to his crew with a smile plastered on his face. They all walked towards a few cars in the other side of the parking lot.

"God I can't do this." I mumbled and walked out leaving Jesy to get our order. I couldn't handle the guilt of being in love with my best friends girlfriend.

-Jesy POV-

My mind was everywhere. I couldn't really understand what I was feeling and couldn't understand what Jack Johnson was feeling.

After the awkward encounter with Gilinsky and his new friends, Jack stormed out looking troubled. I knew it wasnt about Gilinsky but about us now. So I waited for our order and then walked back to the car where Jack was slumping in the front seat.

I got in and he started the car before I could close my door. And just when I shut it - Jack drove off at an alarming speed. Our cokes almost toppled over.

"Jack - " I began but he raced on with his knuckled tight against the wheel and a harsh look in his eyes.

He ignored me and looked on towards the road, I couldn't read his facial expression and it scared me.

"JACK!" I yelled loudly making him snap out of the insane daze. He hit the break just as we reached the corner of my street.

"I'm...I'm sorry." He said hoarsely as if not realizing what he was doing. He looked crazy and haunted. I wanted to touch him but this sudden change in behaviour scared me.

He drove more slower now and turned into my driveway. I felt my heart racing now as that could have ended badly. For both of us.

Jack parked and just sat back in the seat. His face blank and hopeless - I knew that something he was about to say would break me down. I just knew it.

"Jesy." Jack swallowed.

I blinked, feeling tears sting in my eyes. I couldn't exactly open them or the tears would pour. I bit my lip to stop it from quivering. The sob in my throat rose.

"I can't do this anymore." Jack said quietly. "I'm so sorry."

And the tears came down in floods of hurt and realization. I wasn't even the least bit shocked - from the first kiss I knew it would end this way. How terribly cliché.

"Jack - "

"Don't cry. Please don't." Jack said looking away as I wiped the teas away slowly. "Don't say anything."

I nodded biting my lip, my chest heaving and my legs felt like someone had hacked them. I could barely breathed. I was hurt.

But I was also kind of angry - who had the right to just let someone go after catching major feelings for you. How can you just let them off so easily if they mean the world to you.

"Do me a favor." I held the stutter out of my voice - it was hard.

Jack nodded finally looking at me with glassy eyes.

"Never speak to me again." I said quietly and got out of the car taking all the food with me. No shame behind it at all. I slammed his car door.

And then I jogged into my house with a heavy heart following me. Jack had only drove away when I was inside and shut the door. I leaned against the front door and sunk to the floor slowly.

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So I didn't wanna make Gilinsky cheat because that would be a cliche! I hope you like it. Torn in Two is ending soon. I have the perfect ending and can't wait for y'all to read it.

Ilysm <3

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