Torn in Two ❉ j.j

Ch 28 // Secret Out

-Jesy POV-

Monday came around.

I should have been really upset and wallowing in self-pity but I actually felt light and alive.

Jack Johnson was the very reason I was looking forward to this dull Monday morning. I would he seeing him at school and that just made my entire day.

Yesterday, I decided I needed to see the doctor and get checked out. I had taken a few pregnancy tests that are positive so I knew I was. I just wanted to be sure.

I hadn't gone with Jack yet because somehow I felt like this was harder on him than me. Eventually, he would have to tell his best friend - brother actually - that we've been having a secret relationship.

I felt bad. So I decided that I had to get a check up to make I was healthy and the baby would be okay. Also I wanted to know how far along I was. I really wanted to see Jack and tell him all about being at the doctor.

That Monday morning, I messaged G to tell him I'd be going to school on my own. Lately, he knew I'd become distant and he questioned me. But I dodged the interrogation.

I couldn't say anything until i was sure that Jack was on board too. This would be a huge deal because G would either hate us or accept it - the last part seemed too farfetched.

I parked my moms car and jogged across the wet grass. I spotted Gilinsky with some friends and dodged him on purpose. I told Jack to meet me in the library. People only use it during breaks.

I hurried across the school halls, pushing pass people. I spotted a few people who I have grown apart from recently. I realized that they were just friends with me because of Gilinsky.

It didn't bother me, because I was on my way to meet someone who actually cared about me. That's what mattered most.

I reached the library door when some kid had walk pass me as I walked in. I wondered if Jack was here or still on his way. I was nervous for some silly reason.

Sure enough, the library was empty even for the librarian. I walked along my favorite sections wondering when Jack would get here. I was about to call him when someone pushed me against a wall.

"Surprise." Jack flashed a smile at me and kissed my lips immediately. I was shocked but kissed him nevertheless.

It was like every part of my body jerked up and sparked back to life. I had never felt anything like it. Jack cupped my face with his hands - I loved when he did that.

"My beautiful." Jack said as he pulled away. He glanced over my belly like he always did when he spotted me now. "How you feeling?"

I shrugged. "That's what I actually wanted to talk to you about."

"Did something happen? Are you okay?" Jack asked at once and surveyed me worriedly. He suddenly became all tense.

I shook my head. "No no, its just that I went to see a doctor on Sunday just to make sure I know what to do."

Jack didn't relax. "Oh my god, Jesy why didn't you tell me? I would have come with you!"

"Jack, I didn't want to stress you out more. You didn't handle this news as well as you pretended to."

"That doesn't matter!"

"It does." I frowned. "I mean, I know you're worried about what Gilinsky would say."

"Yeah I am Jesy." Jack shrugged. "I fell in love with you, we kissed, we slept together! Now you're pregnant, I have a right to be worried."

I looked at my fingers.

"But that doesn't mean I don't want you anymore...I still do." Jack took my hands. "If Gilinsky cuts me out, I can't blame him and I can't chase after him."

I nodded. He held my hands to his heart. I felt it beat a little faster. It made me smile.

"Sure I want my best friend to stay in my life but...we've gotta be practical with a baby on the way."

"That's what I was going to tell you about Jack." I began again. "When I was at the doctor - "

"Oh right." Jack let go of my hand. "Is there any bad news?"

I shook my head. "I just figured you'd wanna hear this."

Jack looked at me expectantly. He had a neutral expression. When I looked at him, I was just reminded of how I love him so much. How would my life had been if I hadn't fell in love with him.

"As it turns out..." I said. "I'm not really pregnant."

Jack stared at me for a good five hours then he laughed. "What? Jesy come on, we can't joke about this - "

"No I'm serious." I said taking Jacks hand this time. "The doctor say it happens a lot but the blood tests came back and I wasn't pregnant."

Jack blinked. "Jesy..."

"I'm not kidding." I said. "Jack, I'm not pregnant."

Jack just shook his head. "I don't know what to say or how to feel...I mean should I be happy?"

I laughed. "I'm relieved...you should be too Jack."

Jack exhaled slowly. "I guess I am, I'm just a bit shaken up again. I mean it would have been a close one."

I nodded. It took a few minutes and a few reassurances from me to convince Jack that I wasn't pregnant and I wasn't going to have a baby.

"Well i guess that's one obstacle less huh." Jack pulled me into his arms. I held him tightly.

"I know, I feel like telling Gilinsky isn't as bad as actually being pregnant." I said quietly.

Jack was about to respond when I noticed someone in my peripheral vision. The look on my face must have been unmistakeable as Jack himself looked to the left where the person stood.

"Gilinsky?" Jack said in a shocked and broken voice.

I looked too. And my heart instantly broke at Gilinsky looked at us with betrayal on his face.

"Jack - " I began and stepped forward to intervene.

He stepped back. His eyes were red and his face was filled with anger and resentment. It was undeniable that he could have killed someone now.

"Tell me what I heard now is just a lie?" Gilinsky spoke in a broken but icy voice. He seemed to have gone in a shock.

I bit my lip and felt tears threaten to fall down. I couldn't bring myself to even answer. I didn't think I'd feel this awful until I faced him and saw the heartbreak.

Jack spoke. "I'm so sorry G, I really didn't meant for this to happen but -"

"Is it true?" Gilinsky asked again, his fists balled. "Is it!?"

Jack and I both nodded slowly.