Torn in Two ❉ j.j

Ch 27 // Dinner

-Jack POV-

The next morning when I woke up I felt different. Different like I wasn't Jack Johnson anymore. Just some guy in his body. I was overcome by guilt and fear.

My chest hurt badly, my body was numb and cold, my eyes were red, swollen and my skin was pale. It just felt like everything was wrong this morning.

Especially where I was with Jesy. Last night flipped through my mind in red flashed. Finding her weeping with a couple of pregnancy tests. That wasn't something a guy would want to see especially since it was his best friend.

My phone buzzed.

Jesy: what are we gonna do??

Jesy: I can't hide this from jack...

Jesy: think I should tell him...

I suddenly jumped up and called Jesy on her phone. My heart was already hammering at the thought that she was telling Gilinsky already. I couldn't let that happen now.

"Hello?" Jesy answered after a couple of rings. Her voice was hallowed and empty.

"Its me." I said quietly, sitting back down.

She sighed as she knew it was my voice. I heard a door shut and Jesy said something in a muffled tone.

"Jes?" I asked. "We should talk, maybe I can pick you up - "

"Listen, I'll talk to you later...G is here for me." Jesy said in a strained voice and ended the call. She didn't even wait for a response from me.

I cursed and threw my phone on the bed. I hoped she wouldn't tell Gilinsky about it just yet - I wanted to be the one to let him know. It was only right.

I groaned. Part of me was so jealous right now - Gilinsky could touch her and kiss her and I couldn't even get upset at him. She is his girlfriend and I'm just sneaking around. I can't really forbid them to do anything.

But it ate at me more than you could imagine. I love her. I just wanted all of her. I hated myself for not being a man about this from the start. I should have went after Jesy and not let Gilinsky beat me to it.

Lousy.

"Honey?" My mom poked her head into my room.

"Hmmm." I grunted. I didn't open my eyes because I was afraid she would see my guilt. She would know.

"Jesy's parents called." She said in her happy voice. I knew she still didn't like Jesy always her. "We're going over tonight for dinner."

"What?" I almost fell off my bed. I looked at her now. "Why?"

Mom shrugged. "Just for dinner. I hear that the Gilinsky's will be there too. Just like old times."

"Oh wonderful." I smiled sarcastically and the worse came to mind.

"Just make sure you're home in time for that." Mom smiled then shut my door.

I fell back onto bed as the Saturday morning light burned through my curtain. How could I possible go about this day normally especially at dinner. All of us would be under one roof - I couldn't do that.

It was too much. Too much acting and too much pretending. Too much restraining myself to not hold Jesy for an entire night. Too much. Just way too much.