As soon as class is over. I begin to freak out. Ok now we have the the rest of the day to do some making up. I seriously don't in a million years, want to not be friends with Riley. I mean she's the only reason I'm pretending to happy. And that somewhat makes me less sad to think she assumes I'm happy cause she wants me to be happy.
So I'm just going to act like I've forgotten our little misunderstanding earlier.
Too bad. Riley seems unable to let it go. Yay..."Emm... Explanation." Riley says to me when we're in the car park breaking the silence.
"Explain what?" I say shrugging. I'd actually forgotten what all this weirdness is about.
"The storming out without saying anything."
"Riles,I didn't storm out. I was merely giving you two lovebirds some alone time." I said innocently.
Riley stopped and deliberated for a while staring into space. She looked at me. Her eyes searching my features. "Well that's not what it looked like to me." She said gently."What did my normal human act of walking away look like to you." I was avoiding her eyes by looking at my feet.
She grabbed my hand and we were walking to her car. She dropped my hand, "Inside."Riley unlocked the doors. I opened the door to the passenger seat and got in. I shot a quick glance at Riley, she was looking straight ahead. As if waiting for me to say something.
Ok now, I'm really going to have to try to get away with this before the unimaginable happens.
Sadness.Right now, Riley is angry because she needs an explanation for my display in the cafeteria. And if I don't fix this she's going to end up sad. And I'm so not letting that slip.
"Riley, do you care to explain what-from your eyes, you thought I was doing when I booped Lucas and went for Calculus?" I said softly trying to make this sound like it was no big deal.
She looked at me and smiled. "Well, it's not really anything, just some stupid girlfriend stuff."
Yeah, like I would know."Well," she continued, "When I saw you boop Lucas, well I got a teeny bit
jealous.""Jealous." I chuckled. "Why?"
Why would she be jealous of me? She's the one who's always so happy it's hard to believe that she has any other emotions. I'm just some sad girl pretending to be happy.
She sighed. "You know how you always had some kind of a relationship with Lucas."
"Relationship? It wasn't like that. I just loved to annoy him and he loved to do the same." I said a bit panicky. She shouldn't be getting worried about this. Worry leads to sadness. Besides she should notice I said 'loved', as in used to. It's all in the past. Sad.
"I know... It was just so playful and funny and cute." She sounded like she misses that.
I mouthed an 'I know right' at her.
She laughed."And don't forget the extremely annoying aspect." I said.
I don't know but I'm sensing some sort of different Riley. A Riley who's worried.
I know I said I wouldn't do this but I
hope she not thinking anything else than Lucas and I were just friends."I was always thought of Lucas as my boyfriend, Prince Charming and stuff like that. But that was then, I was just some happy girl confused with how the world was like. I was just making my my way anywhere, blinded by fairy tales,etcetera. I was so blinded I didn't even realize-"
"Riley, Lucas and I are just friends." I cut in. Seriously what is she trying to tell me?
"Realize Lucas is like a brother to me." She said ignoring me. "That I never will have that playful thing you have with him. That's how all boyfriend-girlfriend relationships are supposed to be."
Ok now that really got to me. I'm not holding anything back now. She doesn't have to get all 'sad' or whatever she's feeling right now.
"What do you mean by 'boyfriend and girlfriend relationship' not being you and Lucas?" I questioned firmly. "Riley, Lucas loves you more than anything in the world and I promise you that what you are thinking is completely irrelevant and you're just putting some weight on your shoulders for no reason."
Riley still looked at me wordless. So I continued. This is seriously not my Riley. And I'm going to do whatever possible to make her annoyingly happy again.
"Have you even seen the way he looks at you. Like you're treasure or his prized possession or something and that crap you were saying about not having a playful thing with him is all nonsense cause what you and Lucas share is not the slightest thing to a brother and sister thing, it's something more intense."
"How would you know?" Riley mumbled.
Yeah I totally forgot. I haven't actually dated a person to know how she felt. What was I thinking? That I could fix this. Yeah right. Trust sad people to always not realize stuff."You're right, I haven't dated anyone to know. I'll just be quiet for now.But until then, I want you to know that you shouldn't go and get sad all over the place for no reason. Lucas like adores you. He wouldn't assume you as anything more than the love of his life. I might not know but I'm guessing this is some kind of phase in relationships. Even extraordinary ones like you and Lucas." I said sincerely. I hugged her tightly." "Don't be sad Riley, keep smiling."
I opened her car door and got out.
YOU ARE READING
A Bleak Kind Of Happy.
Fiksi PenggemarMaya Hart is a sixteen year old girl dealing with the hardship of life resulting in sadness which she hides by playing happy. But sadness is not easy to overcome, causing her to easily take chances.