Define Ezria

Chapter 33

I've always hated the feeling of wanted to do or say something but the next moment you forgot what the said thing even was. That's how I felt when Ezra eased my tiny body back on Melissa's bead and hovered over me.

A tiny voice inside my head was screaming at me to stop but I just couldn't think.

"Now that I have your attention" Ezra said pinning my hands at either side of my face, "you have to listen to me"

"Whatever you think you're doing, forget about it" his stare burned and I had to look away.

"Whatever you think you're protecting, it's not worth a hair on your head"

I sighed and closed my eyes completely. "Ezra, how many times have we had this conversation? We used to have to get by, day by day, and not think about the future at all. But now, when every single day something new comes up and I feel like I can't... I can't breathe-" I gasped for air, and I couldn't stop my eyes from watering.

"Hey now" Ezra unpinned my hands and gathered me in a hug effortlessly.

"I'm so sorry Aria" he whispered against my head and I sniffed pathetically.

"I really wish things were different. But now it's your life we are talking about and I'm not willing to let you risk it for our shake."

I shook my head and pushed him away. "No. You don't understand! I'm im way to deep! If anything, anything, happened to you now I wouldn't survive it."

He opened his mouth to object so I slammed my mouth on his to shut him up. "I've never felt like this with anyone else but you." I whispered against his lips. "You are my priority now whether you like it or not. I'm tired of being the damsel in distress that needs saving"

I stood above him and pointed at his heart. "Let me save you."

"Babe, you are aware you have two broken limbs right?"

I rolled my eyes and crossed the room to where Melissa's vanity table was. I took a seat and stared myself in the mirror. My eyes were red from crying and my hair was a mess.

God I was so sick of crying.

I reached into my bra where I had hidden my "emergency stash" and popped two painkillers into my mouth.

I closed my eyes and tried really hard to focus on what was going to happen next.

"Did you just pull pills out of your bra?" Ezra's dumbfounded voice came from above me and I tried hard not to laugh despite everything.

He must have noticed because he leaned against me only to whisper "Damn those pills are lucky" in my ear.

This time I couldn't help but smirk while I reopened my eyes and looked at both our reflections in the mirror.

I wish time could stop so him and I could just be without a taboo relationship, or revenge schemes or Noel.

"Aria we have to talk about this" he said after a while shattering my irrational fantasies about a perfect ending.

There was not such thing.

"No. We have talked about this. I'm tired of talking." I yawned and reached behind me to touch his cheek. "Will you stay with me? I'm tired"

Ezra just stared at me intensely through the mirror but nodded nonetheless. "Of course"

I fought to keep my eyes open as I stood up and shoved him towards Melissa's en suite bathroom. "Stay there until I say so"

To my complete surprise he nodded and shut the door, so I made my way to Spencer's room only to find that Hanna and Emily had gone home, leaving Spencer alone to obsess over the whiteboard.