Define Ezria

Chapter 41

They hugged. . . and hugged. It must have been only a mere second, but from my perspective, standing right next to them, it seemed like ages. They looked, well, they looked right. She was Ezra's height, if not taller with her black Louboutins on and even though I knew next to nothing about her she looked like she had her life together.

I knew who she was before Ezra said her name in pure astonishment. The two broke off the hug but stayed in arms reach just smiling broadly to each other. A wave of nausea hit me out of nowhere along with the feeling that I was intruding. Like a trainwreck where you know you shouldn't be looking but somehow you can't take your eyes off the beautiful chaos and distraction of it all.

I mumbled an excuse that neither of them heard and fled the scene before the tears I felt coming managed to make an appearance. I maneuvered as fast as I could to the cafeteria and sat down at the girls.

"What? No quicky in class?" Hanna snickered and Spencer elbowed her. "That's of British origin, where on earth did you pick it up?"

"I've been watching Skins" she laughed but sobered up quickly when she saw I wasn't laughing along. In fact, I must have looked completely lost because Emily put her hand around my shoulder.

"What did he do now?" she asked defensively.

"Reunited with his wife" I made it sound like a question and all activity seized on out table. "His what now?" Spencer screeched and I didn't miss the fact she tightened her hold on the white plastic lunch knife.

"You were right Em, Mrs. Molina is hot."

"Nooooo!" all three of them said in unison and leaned closer to me as if having misheard. "How do you know it's her?" Hanna asked and I shrugged, "She was holding those folders subs always carry around, didn't take me long to put two and two together."

The real question was what exactly she was doing here. Did she just randomly started working in the high school her ex fiancé works of all places? That would be a convenient coincidence and like Alison used to say if it looks like a coincidence it most likely is not.

"What did Ezra say?" Em frowned and so did I. He had seemed equally surprised to see her in the hallway as I was, but then again how did I know he was being genuine ? I shook my head, not liking the path of my thoughts. I couldn't start distrusting him now after everything we has just been through.

"He didn't say anything"

"Maybe he didn't know Aria. Truth is he has been fussing over you for the past month, I don't even think the guy even sleeps. Maybe he genuinely wasn't cut up on what was happening in school. I know I am." Spence sighed and I found some truth in her words. Ezra had been fretting over me since the accident, even if I was cutting him off, he was always around trying to come up with a way for me to let him back in.

"Bullcrap, he knew" Hanna said and just like that my last thread of hope went down the drain. "Think of it Aria, why on earth would he tell you and upset you even more when you hardly spoke to the guy a week ago."

"Cut it out Hanna, you don't know that and truth is, it doesn't matter what any of us says. Aria you have to ask him yourself"

I nodded and took my phone out of my jacket only to find a new message from him.

"We need to talk"

My stomach turned again at the sight of those ominous four words but I knew we had to.

"Your place this afternoon?"

"Yes"

I slammed my phone on the table, wishing fliphones were still in fashion so I could dramatically snap mine closed. " Please let's change the subject"

"Good. Party planning." Hanna said beaming and immediately pulled out a binder from her worn out Chanel backpack.

"What on earth is that, and isn't Spence the one to usually make a folder" Em asked and I laughed at Spencer's offended look.

"I am choosing to take this as a compliment, and this is Hanna's territory. I don't even know what I wanna be yet"

"Me neither" Em and I chanted in unison.

"I can fix that." Hanna opened the folder and we spent the rest of the day going through ideas and costumes until we decided that Hanna was going as Harley Quinn, Spencer as Virginia Wolf , post suicide, and Em was gonna be Mia Wallace when she ODed.As for me, I was stuck with vampire but Hanna promised me she was gonna make it original.

Dad picked me up after school to head to the hospital to have my cast removed. Unfortunetlely for me, I was stuck with the one on my leg for a few more weeks but my arm had finally healed.

"Mr. Montgomery?" I nurse tapped Dad on his shoulder and asked him to follow her because there was a mixup with the paperwork.

They excused themselves leaving me alone with my doctor who kept staring at me pitifully.

"What is it?" I asked. We had established a certain relationship over the past months I was hospitalized and I knew what each one of his expressions meant.

"You have no idea, don't you?" I frowned and he motioned for me to sit back down.

"Aria you had a miscarriage. When you came in that first day you had multiple wounds on your lower abdoment and some internal bleeding. We didn't even know until the second labs came in. It was phenomenally early. In those cases it's not even detected but we couldn't proceed to surgery without figuring it out."

I just started at him. Looking at his lips move and being aware that I should be attention to what he was saying but automatically not wanting to. Like those times in class you zone out and you are aware you're doing it but too tired to zone back in.

"The psyc and therapist didn't think it would benefit your condition if you knew right after you woke up, since you seemed to be unaware you were pregnant in the first place.

Pregnant.

"I'm sorry you had to find out this way, this is confidential information, your father doesn't know since you are an adult"

I nodded again and took a deep breath. "Thank you Doctor" I gathered my stuff and opened the door right when Dad was coming over.

I managed to keep it together during the drive back home and when I finally got in my room, no tears came. I just sat in silence holding my stomach. I was pregnant. I had a baby, no matter how small, in me. Ezra's baby.

Did I want a baby? Of course not. We had enough issues as it was but no matter how much my brain tried to reason with my heart, it failed. Guilt was what I felt the most. Guilty that I failed that baby. I didn't want to faint my relationship as well.

The decision was made for me then and there. I would keep this to myself. I wouldn't tell Ezra nor the girls. It would be my burden. I knew that Ezra deserved to know but it would crush him and ruin us.

I couldn't wait any longer. I threw my jacket back on, took my crutches and headed down the stairs. Dad was nowhere to be found, thankfully so I took my car keys,glad I could finally drive and before I knew it I was persistently ringing Ezra's bell.

He didn't have the chance to say anything because I threw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and kissed him so hard it was almost painful.

"Wow" he breathed when we parted for air, "I didn't expect that" .

"Neither did I. But I need it" I said and kissed him again.

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