In Denial

Chapter 32

Jason’s POV

I followed them down. It was a scary thought, the thought that I might witness my mate dying. I hope she will make it through this. I won’t be able to live without her she is my everything.

The operating room was dimly lit. I was also quite cold. There was silver everywhere. Well, not real silver of course that would be very dangerous. It is basically stainless steel.

“Before we begin, will you please put on some surgery clothes? If not you may cause an infection.” Dr Adams said.

“Sure where will I find those?” I asked looking around.

“You will find them in the store over there.” She said pointing towards a black door.

I nodded and headed off to the store. The clothes were already set out. They were like a turquoise colour. There was a hat, a face mask, a pair of trousers and a baggy t-shirt thing. They smelt like some type of sanitizer that was making me feel nauseous! If this wasn’t going to save my mate’s life, you would never catch me dead in anything like this. I would basically never come in to the hospital if I didn’t have to. I hate hospitals, but at the end of the day they will save your life.

I walked out of the room. My stomach was full of butterflies. What if something goes wrong? I will never forgive myself, the pack will hate me for basically making the decision to kill their Luna and most of all I will never see her again.

“OK. Are you ready, Jason?” the doctor asked.

“I suppose.” I said with uncertainty lacing my voice.

“What I need you to do is; hold her hand and talk to her. You can do it through the mind link if that is what you want. I am sure that it would work better if you did do it through the mind link.”

“OK, I will.” I said and sat down beside her. She was facing sideways so that they could operate on her brain easily. She still had all these different tubes sticking out of her. More so than what she had in the room.

They started the procedure and I decided not to look. I just zoned myself out. I held on to Ally as if my life depended on it.

‘Al, everything is going to be OK, I promise, I will fix you.’ I said through the link. There was a raise in the heartbeat and it was returning to the normal rate.

“Keep doing whatever it is you are doing.” Dr Adams said winking.

I nodded. ‘Ally, I love you so much and you have to make it through for me. I need you so much and I don’t know what I would do without you. I know it sounds cliché, but guess what? I don’t care.’

I ramble on. ‘Remember that time when we were younger? We were out on the beach and my parents went to buy ice cream. Then when we got it we ran off? We got into a full blown ice cream fight. Then I dunked yours in your face and you looked as if you were going cry. And it was all over your mouth. You just looked so irresistible at that moment. That day we both had our first kiss.’ By the time I was done saying that I was crying so much but I knew I had to continue, it was keeping her alive after all.

‘That was one of the many memories I have with you. I knew from that day that you were my mate and I knew you felt it too but couldn’t really explain the feelings because of course you didn’t know of our kind yet. But this is our life now. It may be complicated but at least we have each other. And I can’t lose you, not now, not ever. I really do love you. Even before I found out we were mates, I always loved you. Always.’ I sighed.

 ‘I promise whenever you come back to me I will do everything in my power to make sure you never get hurt again. We will train, in wolf and human. So that if I am not around you can still protect yourself. And our pups, I really can’t wait to have kids with you. You will be such an amazing mother, really, you will. Can you imagine little me running about and then little you coming after him and telling him to stop just like you used to do? It will be perfect.’