In Denial

Chapter 40

Ally’s POV

Today is Alice’s christening and the presents we picked for her are absolutely gorgeous. But even though I should be thinking about Alice today just can’t stop thinking about that kiss that we shared it was amazing. I cannot get it out of mind not matter what I do. I was thinking about it late last night and I didn’t get to sleep until all hours of the morning. I am just so confused and frustrated. We never even talked about it.

Today I was wearing a beautiful pink dress with leather straps and the leather makes an ‘x’ just under the breast. It reaches my knees. To finish off the look I wore glittery black heels.  My hair was in a bun ring and a few curls were coming down from it. I lightly did my makeup.

Okay maybe I should explain this whole christening thing because it is way different than a human one. The humans in us believe in god so she will christened by a normal minister first. After that everybody will become their wolf form and our wolves worship the moon goddess because she is the maker of all werewolves. So the Alpha which is still officially her grandfather (but Jason will be helping with this stage too) will hold her up at full moon which is tonight, showing her to the moon goddess and we will use the werewolf pledge to welcome her to the werewolf world.

It sounds pretty confusing and complicated but it is not really. Apparently, my real parents had already done this to me a few hours after I was born because they knew that we had been in danger. So it saves me the humiliation of getting it done now in front of everyone. And id only have to be in my underwear, it would be too embarrassing.

Suddenly, I felt arms snake around my waist. I immediately removed them and swung around to see Jason standing there with a smirk on his face.

“Jason, this wasn’t the deal, okay? We need some space between us! There will not be another repeat of yesterday!” I whisper yelled not wanting my parents to hear.

“Al, I’m sorry about yesterday, It shouldn’t have happened. But you kissed me back! It just gave me the impression…” He trailed off.

“Impression?”

“The impression that we are back on track and I don’t need to be apart from you anymore.” He said looking at his feet.

“Jason mates are meant to be good for each other but you were making me feel trapped because you were so possessive. And I made you feel jealous all the time and you were angry at me. I just couldn’t stick it anymore. We both have a lot of growing up to do before we can become Alpha and Luna of that pack. We need to sort out our issues.” I said looking into his eyes. I meant every word I said.

“Al, I feel lost without you and I need you back in my life really badly. I know that I got too jealous and I don’t know how to stop that. It is my wolf’s instinct to protect you and I’m sorry. After what happened to you my wolf just cannot forgive itself. And I know that I shouldn’t have got angry with you. I’m sorry, Ally.” He said sounding so broken, that it was breaking may heart. He just got up and walked away.

Now I feel bad. It is hard for me too especially since he marked me. It is so hard to be away from him but it is for the good of our relationship. I don’t want to lose him for good because he gets too angry at me one day and lashes out. Wolves are generally angry, but not with their mates. But he has been acting so strange lately and I just can’t cope with it. Why can’t we just like normal mates?

It is never going to be easy to be us. That has been clear from the start when I didn’t even know about werewolves but now, my wolf needs her mate but my human needs a break and I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I don’t think any relationship runs smooth but our relationship is just so bipolar and confusing and I just don’t like it the way it is and if we are ever going to be together it is going to have to change. We are meant to be Alpha and Luna we can’t keep breaking up because we are meant to be strong for our pack and not show them that we are weak but we are not succeeding too well in that department.