Ups and Downs to Life

"Peaceful"

We started to talk again and I went to his house and I loved every second of it. He laid on me and I was rubbing his back to put him to sleep. And I was slowly falling asleep to and he realized that I was falling asleep and he started to move which wake me but and I know your probably gonna think this is gross or weird but when he was laying on me he was breathing hard around my neck area and I thought it was so cute but we was like falling asleep. And then he got up and just stared in my eyes and I felt at peace, like there was no worry in the world. And then he got thirsty and he took a shot of some peace alcohol I don't know what it was but it was okay I don't really like brown liquor it gets me fuck up in seconds. But then he decided to pour it on me and he like licked it off and then we started to kiss and I took another shot. He tried to pick me and I hate being picked up and he knows that but he thought it was funny. And he was being rough with me but it turned me on he threw me against the wall and then penned me there and kissed me. And he handcuffed me cause I didn't want him to kiss on my neck cause it start other thing (sexually).

Fast Forward a hour and a half later cause grownup things happened.

And then we had a little chat about some shit we had to tell each other how shit was and giving each other heads up, notifying each other how shit was you know normal people stuff. Then I got kinda angry and I start whoop his ass I was mad anyway cause he didn't tell me happy birthday and I lose 3 family members while he want "M.I.A" and I started to hit him and at first I felt bad I felt like I was a abusing him but then he hit me back and there was so many emotions for a quick second. I thought what if he really hits me one day and I get a black eye or something but then I thought sexually and thought this could be like Mr. And Mrs. Smith types shit were we fuck afterwards.( Mr. And Mrs. Smith is a good movie if you never seen it you will understand more if you watch it.) But then I thought if I wasn't so mad or trying to hit him this shit would never would happen. But then I thought it was funny for a minute too though and I mad a smart comment and I said "You hit like a bitch" and then he started hitting me again. But I didn't really give a fuck it was like oh we are playing fighting again. But we kissed and talked a little more then I left.