Ups and Downs to Life

Treat people how they treat you

I love everybody I'm a people person but I guess that comes back and bit you in ur ass. I always so nice to people and they treat me like shit. But for example I love my boyfriend I would do anything for him his my life but when he starts talking bad to me he might not think its bad but it kills me in side and now I'm sitting in my bed crying come it hurts. And I love him that's supposed to be my life and when he talks bad to me I want to cut myself to death and I'm pretty sure nobody should hurt u with word like that but I love him and when someone you love hurts you it hurts like hell. But and my mom I hate her she is the one person in my life that makes me hate my life I love her but I don't like her she does the same thing. I will take care of her and she won't say thank you or nothing and she won't care. Like I'm the only person who cares but I don't get a thank you and it will have to take me to cry and try to kill myself to show my mom that I'm not happy and then she covers it up in like three days. Like she treat me like shit so I'm about to do the same I'm about to not care and same with my boyfriend cause I have to cry and try to cut myself to show my boyfriend that you hurt the shit out my feeling when u do the mean things you do. And I try to tell him over the phone but he never wants to talk or he gets mad cause he reading his not hear the hurt in my voice I feel like I need to go over there and we need to talk and I don't want to lose him. And I don't like to bitch at him cause my job is to make you happy not piss you off and I know I can do taut sometime but it's like I don't know how to tell him without him being pissed I text him yesterday like if I don't text you everyday we would probably won't talk. Like why do I always have to be the first to text or him taking forever to text back like it not fair to me. But I didn't text him today to see if he got what I was trying to tell him but he didn't he didn't text me morning and no text and I seen he was on Facebook so you have been on your phone I feel like that's so mean and it hurts me in the inside but night y'all. I'm crying myself to sleep.😥