Ups and Downs to Life

Ex Fiancé (Donald)

So basically my so called step-dad sexual assaulted me. Yeah take it in its a lot I know. But it started in late October and didn't end until February. And it was on my birthday party were the worst started. But he would take me driving and he would push my thighs into his lap.( yes he told me to sit on his lap and I was to scared to say no) But one day we went driving he said he had to pee he want pee in the bushes and got back in the car and his whole (penis) was out and he told me to sit down and I was to scared to say anything and I felt uncomfortable and I started to drive and I got to a stop and I sat back on the passenger-side. And I went to my sister's house and as I was getting my bags out the back sit I could tell he was covering himself up (his penis). But he has always been inappropriate with me. He would tell me really sexual jokes and he would be the only person laughing. One time he told me about a time he spent a night with a female and when they would wake up he would already be inside her. And I knew in the back of my mind he wasn't supposed to be having these kinds of conversation with me but I didn't think anybody would believe me and what I was going to say. But he would spend a lot of money on me so he can get me to like him. And one time I was sick at school but my mom couldn't pick me up because she had to work and he came and pick me up we came to the house and he climbed into my bed and said me wasn't live until I eat all my soup but I wasn't hungry my stomach was hurting really bad and he got in my bed and was trying to cuddle with me. And at night every night he would come into my room and watch me sleep and he would always kiss me at like 4 in the morning. And sometimes he would sit in my door way and just watch me for hours. Sometimes he would walk around the house with a whole boner and it would just me and him home and it would always be that way I would always be left alone with him. And I tried to tell my mom about the situation but she didn't see my cry out to her so I had to deal with him until I had the guts to literally talk or tell somebody about it. And there's something about this whole thing that makes me want to take it all back.😔😔😔😔😔