Souls You Can't Save

The Necklace

Max.

I hadn't ever liked him as more than a friend, and I had my suspicions, but this was way too over the top.

This was the most expensive looking necklaces I had ever seen. And he bought it for me.

I'm so done.
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*3 months later*

This is possibly the shittiest week of my entire life.

It started out great, I had a normal Monday and Tuesday, and Nevaeh and Kia came over after school. Knowing Michigan, Monday it was 60 degrees and sunny, and Tuesday we were supposed to get 8 inches of snow.

I had a ton of fun with Kia and Nevaeh, trashing my room, adding people to the Burn Book for our school, and discussing boys.

Eventually Kia went home, and about an hour after that, we got a call from the school saying that there was going to be a snow day.

I ran to the top of the stairs and yelled "I TOLD YOU THERE'D BE A SNOW DAY DAD SUCK IT!"

Nevaeh followed me down the stairs and asked my dad if I could  sleep over at her place with Kia.

"I guess, but Celeste, I have to talk to you first, and it's going to take longer than you think."

I groaned and said "ok but I can go over? Right?" and he nodded. We went back upstairs to pack up our stuff. Nevaeh went home, and I went to go talk to my dad.

"Ok dad, what's so important? You're starting to scare me."

He sighed, and he wasn't even looking at me, which worried me even more.

"Whirlpool has been laying people off because there's a huge drop in sales....."

I could see where this was going and I was terrified.

"My job was one of the jobs chosen to be eliminated."

He looked like he was about to cry. I felt like such an asshole. I can't imagine how he feels. Not being able to support your kids must make you feel like shit. I put on a strong face and hugged him. I tell people he's an asshole and sometimes a horrible father, but he tries, and I think he just needs me to not hate him right now.

I also feel like I'm going to be the root of all problems with money right now. I'm an expensive child.

"I hope you realize that this not only affects me, but your mom too, because I make monthly support payments to her because her income used to be less than mine. I'll be looking for a job, but my last day of work is Monday."

"I love you dad. We'll get through it. I promise."

He sighed. "Do you still want to go to Nevaehs?"

"Duh dad"

We both laughed.

"Then get your ass ready we're leaving in 5."

Shit.
How am I going to tell my friends?
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I got to Nevaeh's and let myself in. "Hey Mom!" I yelled to her mom before walking to her room.

"Hey bitches!" I said as I threw my stuff in a corner.

"Sup slut"
"Hi hoe"

Normal greetings for me and my friends.

"Hey Jade's going to come over tomorrow morning. Jakob's going to drive her." Nevaeh said.

Wonder-fucking-ful.

I didn't mention that things aren't great with me and Jade right now. She's been quite the bitch to me about something that happened a while ago. I haven't been talking to her.

"Great." I said as sarcastically as possible. "Just another thing to ruin my fucking week."

They both looked shocked.

Kia said "God, she's still mad?"
I nodded.

"To be honest, I kind of agree with her. You've been distant and bitchy lately." Nevaeh said while filing her nails.

I was shocked. I thought Nevaeh was neutral about the argument. She was on my side for a while but didn't want to get involved.

I just glared and jumped on her top bunk, ignoring both of them for a solid half hour.

"God Celeste what the fuck is so horrible that you're being more of a bitch than usual?!"

I snapped. I was pissed. I didn't want to talk about it, but I had no other plausible explanation.

"I'm sorry my dad just lost his fucking job, Nevaeh. There's not much I can do about my attitude."

She sat up and looked shocked. My dad and her mom worked at the same company.

"Oh my god. Why? Did he get fired? Is my mom gonna get fired?"

I just rolled over and pretended to go to sleep. I didn't want to talk to her or Kia anymore.
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I was the first one up the next morning, so I made myself breakfast and turned on the tv.

Roughly two hours later Kia and Nevaeh walked into the living room.

"Let me be really fucking clear. Neither of you tell anyone my dad lost his job or so help me I will break your nose."

They both nodded, looking slightly terrified.

I eventually left, and hung out with my mom the rest of the day because it was her week starting today.
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I am internally killing myself right now. The principal just told us the freshman are taking the PSAT's on Tuesday.

I left school, walking around outside until my mom came to get me at 3:00.

She looked like she had been crying, and I knew anything she was going to say couldn't be good.

"Your grandpa Bob died this morning. He fell out of his chair in the Lutheran Home and hit his head really hard."

And I thought the week couldn't get any worse.

And the fact that it was my dad's father made it worse. He lost his job and his father. I feel so horrible.

"The funeral is Tuesday. We'll be going to Milwaukee to support your grandma and your dad."

"Shit."

My mother looked surprised, and then glared at me.

"Mom I'm supposed to take the PSAT on Tuesday. What the hell am I supposed to do?!"
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