Souls You Can't Save

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about a week ago, Nevaeh, Kia, Scott, Kat, Ivy and I went to Jonas's house for a bonfire. We didn't actually stay around the bonfire, we went to the school playground and hung out there most of the night.

Scott was the last to get there, and Kia and I ran over to hug them. After that, we went to go sit on a little bridge on the playground.

I stared at her awkwardly.

I'm bad at these things.

"Hey"
"Hi"
"I missed you"
"I miss you too"

things have been rough lately because my parents, mostly my dad, refuse to let us hang out alone.

Conservative Christian parents automatically assume that slightly gay people want to fuck everyone they see.
no dad.
no.

I just sat there, hugging her for probably five minutes, and then we went to rejoin the masses.
for another hour, Jonas, Kat, Scott, Kia and I were making gay jokes and I swear Nevaeh's eyes were going to fall out from rolling them so much.
after jokes about implied kissing, Neveah said "ewwww no couple thingsss" and started talking to Ivy.

Kia left to go sit on the playset, and Jonas raised his eyebrows at me suggestively.
I walked over to the playset and said
"hey, wanna slightly piss everyone off and also make them freak the fuck out?"

she smiled

"How?"
"Kiss me"

we looked across the playground, trying to get Nevaeh's attention. We waved at Scott and were mouthing and pointing "GET NEVAEH"

eventually he got her to look.
we kissed.
she screamed.
everyone looked.
I walked away, laughing.
Kia said, "get back here, that was a peck, not a kiss."

so I walked back and kissed her again.

we walked back to the teeter totter thing where everyone was sitting, and I raised my eyebrows suggestively back at Jonas, and then at Scott.

it's a thing.
another thing.
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I worked all week, but on Sunday I went to South Bend for a dress fitting with Nevaeh, Kia, and Jonas.

when the dress fitting was done, Janet suggested a Mexican restaurant called Salsa's, and we all happily agreed.

a trip to the mall was next, where I bought more than I probably needed.

at Hot Topic, I got buttons, two twentyone pilots buttons, a panic! at the disco button, and three supernatural buttons. I gave one to Jonas, one to Kia, and pinned the rest on my purse.

a little later we went into Spencer's to buy fake nose rings. Nevaeh and I were arguing who was going to ask an employee to open the case, but the cute boy next to us had already asked for us.

Meanwhile, Kia and Jonas explored the rest of the store, and found the sex toy wall. Jonas asked me to buy him a penis shaped cup, and no matter how hilarious it would have been, I said no.

I found a shirt that said "Straight Outta The Closet" in a rainbow font, and Nevaeh dared me to buy it and wear it to church. No dice.

i slept over at Nevaeh's that night, and the next day was even more interesting.
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my mom picked us up in the morning to go to the beach, and I couldn't find my bottoms.

i ended up wearing shorts, but when we got there, my sister was wearing my bottoms, and denied that they were mine.

a little later, we decided to take a walk, and we went almost a mile down to the pier. we swam part way back, and Nevaeh untied my top.