Souls You Can't Save

We're Going Down

Wow ok I lied about having another chapter up but I'm on a long ass bus ride,  so expect chapters.

Read on kiddos.
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The next day I went to church with my dad, but I had to be there 45 minutes before the service started. This week is graduation Sunday, so everyone moves up and moves on. It's more popularly called teen takeover because the teens do all the adult's jobs.

Elise, Dezahrae, Grace, Emma and I were stationed at the youth room doors as greeters. Since first service starts at nine, there were lots of grumpy people who obviously didn't want to be there that early. It was our job to get them hype.

We gave the kids high fives instead of handshakes, serenaded the parents, and laughed along with them.

There was one guy, he was awesome. He stopped in front of us, looked around, and said, "This is possibly the best day of my life. I get five handshakes from some very awesome young women." He shook all of our hands, except Elise's, and just as we thought he was going to walk past her, he did a little jazz turn and yelled "AND BEHIND THE BACK!" and shook her hand behind his back.

(quick AN/ idk where I was going with this because I stopped writing, so that's the end of that...)

the rest of this week, we had exams. it was hell. standing outside after the final bell on Thursday, Kax, Cliffe, Will, Nevaeh and I plugged my phone into a portable speaker and blasted "Fuck This Shit I'm Out". Right in front of the Vice Principal.

a couple days prior to this, I asked my dad to print out my time capsule letters for my language arts project, and had a huge "oh shit" moment. an hour after I gave him my laptop password, I realized I had left TrevorSpace and a YouTuber's coming out video in open tabs. he hadn't texted me back, so I assumed he ignored it.

I was hella wrong.

After school, he came to pick up Nevaeh and I, and after we dropped off Nevaeh, he just kept driving.

I knew what that meant. there was a shitstorm on the way.
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there was a long ass hour of me sitting in the car, nodding my head at every word my dad said. it was all bullshit and I knew it. he said
"Celeste, I still love you. that doesn't mean I'm going to accept this confusion. you should be talking to your mom and I, not strangers on the Internet. I know your friends do that too...my point is, maybe you should change your friends..."

like hell im going to get different friends.

he continued.  "I don't think you were born this way like it's all environmental influence and that's why you can't go to Kia's. I think you might want to think about some new friends that won't cause added stress"

at this point, I don't know if I'm angry or sad or relieved because this is off my back but I didn't want them to find out like this. I'm also sad because this was my thing to discover on my own and he has no right to blame it on my friends.

and for those words, I will forever be angry.
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talking to my parents about this has been hell. my mom is chill and accepting, but she wants to know everything. my dad, he's a different story. one I don't want to get into.

on the other hand, some asshole has been telling everyone in the school that I'm dating Kia. well, newsflash, and you know who you are, we're taking a break.

going further into that, I'm sorry I was ever your friend. as of now, you're not worth my spit. I'm sick of you thinking you're entitled, and believing you had the right to make my last week at school a living hell. you and your best friend can take those cocky smirks right off your faces. I hate you. and yes, I know it's you. I've asked every single person who's asked me and only one name rolled off their tongues. yours.

good riddance.
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the mackinac trip was a great two days. in summary:
-we got to watch cute lumberjacks compete, and have them sign whatever we wanted. they signed my shoes.
-the bus rides were hella eventful, with Kat, Hannah, Nevaeh, Kia, Mik and I.
-I climbed a shit ton of stairs while being dehydrated and sick, and Nevaeh climbed them with shin splints
-new inside jokes were born (af)
-we made a new friend at Monster Teez on the island (GOOOO ESHA you're my spirit animal girl🙌🏻)
-our carriage ride guide confirmed the existence of wendigos. my life is complete.

it was a damn good trip.
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