Feelings

Scared

Kaydan pov

After all the running back and forth today, I ended up back at my dorm room and in just the nick of time because it was getting dark out. I ran all the way to my house and all the way back , if I'm not soar in the
morning then what was all running for. Running away from Michael was not what I was planning but I couldn't take it. All of everyone's questions , and their nagging about Ashton and myself. I was tired of hearing it. If I liked Ashton then that was suppose to be mine and his business , not everyone in the world's.

Before I ran out on Ashton I grabbed my keys , but surprisingly I couldn't remember where I parked my car , so I decided to run. Which is very weird because I usually hate running.

When I had got home I was more than thankful that everyone had gone home. Even Abbey , which I'm guessing she went home with Luke again. That was fine though because I would have liked to be alone. I mean everybody being at my dorm room , trying to get me with someone that I'm not supposed to be with.

By now I was all sweaty and nasty , so I decided to get into the shower. The steamy water running down my soon to be aching body felt relaxing. I washed my hair , massaging my scalp and rinsed off. After what seemed like a century later , I climbed out of the shower.

Wrapping a towel around my body , and one around my hair , I walked out of the bathroom. I opened my closet , dropping the towel that was hanging around my body. I was searching for clothes when I heard a whistle.

I whipped around to see non other than Clayton. Sitting on my bed acting like this was normal.

"What in the hell are you doing here?" I screamed while rushing towards my towel and covering myself up. This whole time I'm rushing to cover my body up , he is never taking his eyes off of me.

"Are you gonna say anything or sit on MY bed in MY room starring at me like an idiot." I screamed again.

He said nothing. Instead he stood up and slowly walked towards me. His hair had grown longer in a month since I had last seen him. I backed away from him as much as I could , but I eventually bumped into my desk. He came closer to me and soon enough we were inches apart.

"I've been waiting a long time to do what I want with you and know there's no one stopping me." He laughed maniacally in my face. He leaned his nasty small lips on mine. This sure as hell was one thing I didn't miss. I tried to push him off of me but it was no use. He was way bigger than me , meaning I couldn't move him even if I prayed to god for super strength.

Clayton picked me up by arms and carried me to my bed. He threw me down and yanked his shirt off along with his pants. Since I was only wearing a towel , it was a lot easier for him.

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By the time it was done , Clayton passed out. I crawled quietly out of bed and to my closet , grabbing a shirt and pants and quickly pulling them on. I grabbed my phone and keys and left. I'm not sure where I was going but I drove. While driving to wherever I was going , I couldn't help but cry. How could I let him take advantage of me like that. I stopped in an empty parking lot and put my car in park. Tears kept streaming down my face , and soon enough I was having a break down.

An hour later I started the car up again. I drove until I came upon a familiar house. I sat in the car , thinking about if I would want to wake him up at four in the morning.
The thing is that , I don't wanna bother him with my problems , even though he would probably want to kill Clayton for this.

I went up to the front door and slightly knocking. I waited second before the door opened , showing Ashton in basketball shorts and no T-shirt with a grey bandana on his head. His hair was all over the place , some being covered by the bandana and I hated to admit it but he sure looked good for being awake this early. I on the other hand , was not looking so hot , my hair was down and in tangles , and all I had on was a T-shirt and pants. I wasn't even wearing shoes , I knew I had forgot something.

"Kay what are you doing here at .." he paused to look at the time and then continued "4:30 in the morning?" I'm not sure why out of the four boys I could've picked , I picked him.

Ashton eyed me for a minute , looking at my clothes and the lack of.

I studdered a bit before breaking down into tears again. He pulled me intoo the house and straight to his room. The whole time he's rubbing my back to try to calm me down.

Ashton room is different from all of the other boys. His is certainly not as messy as the others is.

"What happened?" He sat me on his bed , not taking his eyes off of me the whole time.

"Clayton. "I whispered so that only Ashton could hear.

Ashton's face fell when he heard the name.

"Did he?" He made a weird face , not wanting to sat what we were both thinking. I nodded my head , as some more tears came down on my cheek.
Ashton took his hand and wiped off the tears from my cheek. He pulled me into his arms , but on instinct I flinched. Instead of letting me go , Ashton held me tighter , showing me it was safe in his arms.

"Shh... It's gonna be okay Kay. I'm here and I'm gonna fix all of this." He whispered while rubbing circles on my back. I did feel safe when in Ashton's arms. Ashton pulled me down to where we were laying down on his bed. He pulled the covers over our bodies , pulling me closer to his shirtless body. Ashton's body was warm , which is what I needed after tonight's events and what I was wearing.

What am I suppose to do?