Feelings

Shock

Ashton's pov

After Michael charged into my house , I was frozen. I couldn't imagine Kaydan's pain right now , knowing that I'm the cause for them losing their baby. I know that Kaydan loves me , and this must be killing her right now. I didn't intend on any of this happening. What have I done? If I would have just admitted what I know , admitted my feelings , none of this would have happened.

"Babe." Bryana called for me. I had forgotten about her being here. "What was all that about? You don't love me?" She asked. She had a sad , pitiful look on her face that made my heart break a little but I was going to have to tell her sooner rather than later.

"I've been meaning to tell you." I said while pulling her to the couch.

"Tell me what?" I could tell that this was going to hurt her , but I couldn't go on like this. I couldn't keep living this lie.

"I'm breaking up with you." I said quickly. It was just like ripping a band aid off , you have to do it quickly.

"No. No you can't do that." She cried.

"I just did. Now please Bryana , leave." She shook her head violently at me before leaving.

I have to talk to Kaydan. I have to explain myself to her , and beg for forgiveness if I have to. But I know that Michael will never let me see her , he's too protective. I mean I would be to if it was Kaydan and I who had lost the baby because of something like this.

As much as I wanted to yell at Michael for yelling at me. I knew I couldn't do that , he was angry and I totally understood that. He had every right to yell at me , I was quite surprised when Michael didn't hit me.

"I have to get to Kaydan." I said to myself. I grabbed my car keys and ran out the front door. I don't even know how fast I got into my car , or if I even locked my front door , but I didn't care. All I cared about was getting to Kaydan , and talking to her about everything.

I drove around for what felt like hours , searching everywhere for Kaydan. I searched her dorm room and her moms house , but she wasn't there so I went to Michael's house. Since this had just happened , I was really hoping that it was where they were. When I got to his house , Michael's car was outside so I knew they were there.

"Michael open up." I banged on his door. I had been banging on the door for a while now and no answer. I knew that they were inside though , I could hear some footsteps slightly walking around.

"Kaydan please , I know you're in there. Open up. I'm sorry okay , I am really sorry." I said. I knocked some more , until the door was opened.

"She doesn't want to talk to you." Michael spoke from behind the door.

"Look , I don't care. I just need to see her , I need to tell her something." I felt a tear go down my face.

The door shut quickly in my face and I heard some locks being turned. Before I knew it I was face to face with Michael.

"What do you have to say that could possibly take away her pain?" Michael's cheeks were tear stained and his eyes were puffy.

"I might not be able to take away her pain , but Michael I just need to talk to her." I practically begged.

"I said she doesn't want to talk to you." He tried to slam the door in my face , but I quickly put my hand out and stopped it. I pushed the door open and stood in front of Michael.

"I need to talk to her." I yelled. "And not you , her , or even god himself is going to stop me from telling Kaydan that I love her." Woah. I hadn't said that out loud at all.

"You what?" I turned around to see Kaydan at the top of the stairwell , her hair a mess and makeup running down her face. It looked like she had been crying for hours , which she probably had.

"I love you Kaydan , and I'm so sorry about what happened. I never meant for any of this to happen." I said while telling closer to the stairs.

"But you let it happen , instead of telling me the truth , you lied and lied and lied." She began to cry a lot.

"And I'm sorry fo-" I didn't get to finish.

"Stop saying that." She yelled. "I am tired of hearing that from everyone. Just stop it already."

"Ashton , I think you need to leave." Michael grabbed my arm.

"Don't touch me." I jerked my arm away from him. "Kay please." I stepped closer to her and climbing up a couple if stairs.

She put her hand out in front of me , so it hit my chest. "Don't come any closer to me , Ashton. I know you didn't mean to do this , but that's not the issue. My problem is that it was you , you made me lose my baby. I trusted you and I love you. But I hate you." She slapped me and ran to Michael's room. I sat at the top of the stairs , shocked.

"Did you break up with Bryana?" Michael came and sat next to me.

"Right after you left. Man I'm so stupid , Michael. If I hadn't lied to her , we wouldn't be in this situation. You and her would be having a beautiful baby , and I screwed that up." I put my head in my hands. I felt Michael shake beside me and I realized her was crying.

"You know I'm sorry , right?" I added. He nodded and covered his face.

I was going to have to find a way to fix this.