I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D *In the Beginning*

Once i looked up , I knew I was drowning , I sat up in the tub with me looking around and breathing heavily , I heard my mother.

      "Avanna!?" she yelled , I got my towel wrapped it around my body and walked downstairs answering her. " Yes Mama"  , she gave me a look and I knew she wasn't playing , " Avanna , what is this?" she points to my socks left on the floor , " ummm , I will get them up" I said then I picked them up and looked at her. " You better not let it happen again , your dad will be here any minute now" she said taking the clothes basket into the landury room. I ran upstairs slamming my door , I didn't care I never considered him my father , he's low down shit and I will never like him , ever!. I get dressed and put my hair up in the mirrior , I am wearing black levi's my jean shorts and my half shirt that says "LOVE" on the front. I walk outside, not telling my mom were I as going , but I had my phone anyways.

  " She will never understand" I say to myself , I am walking down the street and I see my friends , I run to them and hug them with joy , seeing them actually makes me happy. We hang out at the Shady Lane basketball court , alot of boys , gangs , and pot dealers are up there but I will never infulence myself to be with that kind of crowd. " So about the street part you coming Avanna" my friend Raquel nudged me and smiling. " I don't  know if that man comes home with my mom , she will never let me out" I say to her sitting on the swing and staring at the B-ball wanna-bes playing basketball. " Well , you need to come , plus a new boy is in town and every girl is all over him, he has a nice afro and its really curly too , pretty eyes and the cutest laugh and he may be perfect for you" she nudged me again like I am suppose to smile.

  I looked at her and laughed as a group of boys was whisteling like they where summoning a dog. I stand up and roll my eyes. " listen if your trying to summon a Dog , there go some strays over there" I point to the Thots in the corner thots is a word for the Hoes in the clique and they , were Thots. " I'm a young women so swerve on over there" I walk out of the park with Raquel beside me. She walks me home still talking about the party , I don't even know what I'm wearing!, " So are you going" she askes when we get infront of my house. " Yeah i'll be there" I say  " you gotta swear" she says to be with serious look , " Girl , i'm not swearing on anything you know how my momma is , I'll be there no promises , no nothing" I say walking into my house. " I'll Call you!" she yells walking away

  " Avanna! , where were you?!" she yells , oh great I walk in my own house getting yelled at it was only 6:34pm , she was over reacting. " I was at the park with Raquel " I say back sitting on the couch, she put her fist on her hip and raised an eye brow " You better watch it girl , now come on dinner is ready" she says walking in the kitchen. Our house is huge , nice floors , nice walls  everything I ever wanted , to bad I don't wanna be here I am never comtorable in my own home because of "that man" , I dont call him daddy , my dad died of cancer type 4 in his lungs , he was a pot head. 

  " Mom?" I said " what is it Avanna?" , she turned with her ahnd on her hip and she glared, " There is this party , my friend Raquel invited me too , and i was wondering if i--" she put her hand up " Pause! , a street party? , honey , I" she says nothing eles and turns making my plate and lays it infront of me. " Mom , its only for one night " i say to her  " Avanna it's not that! , i'm afarid you will be dead , or you wont be able to handle your self" she says, I say nothing and i eat my food, I didn't want to argue with her so i'll just ask her when I wake up in the morning , the party is tomorrow and I need something to wear. I finish my food and walk upstairs thinking about what I would wear to a street party , it's wired I never been to one of them , but I heard they are fun. If only my mom wasn't so stuck up , I feel so , isolated.