I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D * Love is Many things , It's Never UNSURE*

        I take a good shower , and put up my hair and stayed in my room while I heard them argue , I sat there weak , and hold onto my pillow letting the tears fall on my pillow. I didn't know how to act , or what to do I just wanted them to stop , but one thing I know is he better not lay one finger on my mother , or the police will eat his ass out of my house. " Why are you smoking in the house" he yells " Damn it! it's 10:12pm  ! , I can't stand being alone , please just stop" she says while crying , " Man! i'm going to bed " he says as I hear a door slam shut and locked. He locked my mom out of her own room? ,  oh no!. I hear my mom crying and praying god for forgiveness , forgiveness for what?! , being a good wife?. I run down stairs and hug her as she hugs me back, " I'm so sorry mommy i love you , you can sleep in my room all you want " I say crying in her arms " Thank you sweetie  you really are your fathers child " she says touching my cheek. I walked her upstairs and tucked her in as I grabbed blankets to sleep on the floor in my room. I didn't sleep for a while then I finally was knocked out.

        I woke up at a good 7:15am in the morning , I sat up seeing my mom is gone. I forgot she had work, school started at 9:00am for me so I had a hour and a half to get ready. I took a shower and got my clothes on doing my hair and put my bag downstairs. ate the breakfast my mom saved for me , Nice eggs and waffles and bacon with milk and a banana for me, I was so thankful. I ate it and headed for the bus stop and saw Raqeul and Prince at the bus stop. " Hey guys" I say waving  " whats up girl!" she yells back , Prince smiles waving wating for me to give him a big huge hug. " Hey babygirl" eh says hugging me, " aww so you guys are a thing?" Raquel askes , she is as nosy as me! , and it's a shame " I can't really say , we haven't comfirmed it yet" I say smiling. He looks at me and smiles " I can say that we are , after the frist date I defently want you for me" he says holding my hand. I smile giving off a happy vibe , but somehow he can sense that i'm brokenhearted from yesterday night , he doesn't ask but he does when we sit together on the bus. " Hey Avanna! , I see you Chica!" she says sitting next to Romelo, I didn't say anything back but smile. 

     We waited then he finally came out and said it , " So what happend?" he askes looking at me , I paused and looked at him , " what do you mean" I say trying to play it off , knowing it wouldn't work. " don't Avanna , what happend ?" he says with a louder tone , feeling concerened. I felt butterflies but then an urge to cry to him , " my mom and " that man" where fighting ! , I mean argueing , my mom had to sleep in my room on my bed because he locked her out the room" I say holding back the tears. He sighs holding me close " it's okay don't cry it's the first day of school you shouldn't be going , sad , I should have asked i'm sorry Avanna" he says rubbing my shouler and kisses my head. I am actually glad he did ask , I didn't tell nobody but him. It's sad I don't even tell Raquel , because the last time I did she wanted to go and ask my mom was she okay?. No , just no.  

          We got off the bus and into the school , It is senior year I wasn't expecting much , only that it would take more hard work , and more honor roll just for me to graduate. I went to my locker , and it's ironic I am locker neighboors with Raquel , we always have been , I'm glad I would only wanna be her locker neighboor. The first bell rung and I went to go eat breakfast , I sat with Raquel , Romelo and with the rest of the popular groups , You have the Jocks , the wanna-be's , the most common crowd, you have the Nerds , the drama club ones, and all the others. Me I was apart of the most known group , because I am Raquel's friend , not to give her a label but it's just how she is , she is well known for anything of everything , plus she is student director. The second bell rung and I had to immdately get to class or i was gonna be late, I didn't care about being late really , But it's the first day first impression's count. I sat down next to a Nerd , he was actually kind of cool so we became friends the first day , his name is Andre. That class was over and thank god it was I got hungry and hungry every second the classes started , but lets face it every human is like that during school am I right? , I knew I would be. 

      Finally lunch time started , and I sat with Prince because he is knew to the school and he sat by himself , I mean atleast label the guy as the cool kid , he is so smooth about everything, he was really happy I sat with him during lunch , and so was I. " So how was calsses?" he askes eating his fries, " It was good , but boring , I made a new friend and his name is Andre" I say eating my fries too. " Wow , you must have a spark for some boys" he says laughing , " Yeah , I make new friends every year , i'm the nice girl , but Iv'e also been rewarded with the most high fashion " I say dusting my hands off. " thats good , well you got the magic touch I am just making enemies" he says to me , I get afraid a little , but I know he can handle himself. " wow , well everyone is pretty nice , just stay away from the wanna-bes they judge you just by looking at you" I say drinking my fruit punch " yeah I know , iv'e been judge because of what I wear , I got called "the emo kid" is now what they judge me on" he says shaking his head , " don't worry , just be yourself and everything will be alright I promise , my freshmen year I was judged everyday" I said, he smiled at me and sat back and pulled out his phone and sat next to me , he started showing me pictures of his mom. 

     She was beautiful! , nice brown hair black eyes and a beautiful smile , I actually got a little teary eyed when I saw this sight, " this is her before she died" he says putting his phone away , I feel bad  matter of fact I feel more than bad I feel terriable! , he lost his mother , the women who gave birth to him!. I still have my mother but I lost my father , it's sad and it makes me mad that Iv'e been selffish! " I'm sorry about your mom , really I am" I say to him touching his hand " Oh , its alreat don't be , I got over when I was little , and I know she is where she belongs , and she is always around me , she protects me , she helps me threw the good and bad , but this is not what I wanted to talk about" he says looking at me , " well what did you want to talk about?' I ask smiling. He looked at me a little upset , then I started to figure this wasn't going to be good , " You see , ever since my mom died , I have been nothing but trouble , always causing trouble , I use to be a Man Hoe , I wanted to see how many girls i could get over my 4 years of high school , freshmen year I was out of control , I stole other boy's girls , because  of my looks and charm , during sohpmore year I thought I learned my lesson but I didn't , Junior year was rough for me , because I still haven't learned my lesson , It went so far that I have gotten death threats, Iv'e been shot at , and almost been shot. It's hard to find love from a girl who likes me for me , this senior year , I'm scared i'll die or might not even sruvive this year , because of my actions" He tells me. We he finishes I sit in shock , wow he's got it bad! , worse than me, I hugged him trying to make him feel better , " I'm so sorry , but don't say that your gonna be fine " I say , I look at him and kiss his forehead, he looks at me with tears in his eyes " I just don't wanna lose you , your one of the most best things thats happend to me , and loseing you would be like losing my mother all over again" he says crying , I tear up breathing out and rubbing his back " It's okay , and your not gonna lose my at all , I'll always be here , no matter what " I say.

       " I may not know how you feel but I do know , Love is many things one thing it can never be Is Unsure" I say smiling to him , " Yeah i know that" he says whiping his tears with his small fingers , holding all those silver rings, I wanted to hold him forever I felt so bad , I never knew he went threw all this. "I vowe till this day to keep you by myside" I say kissing his cheek. " Thank you so much Avanna" he hugs me telling me he loves me. i didn't know how to take it in but I cried and held him till the bell rung for 8th period!. I didn't want to let him go , I had to , but from now on I'm taking the lead.