" Alright , thats fine Avanna , I just really miss you , and im too young to die" he says in a choked up tone. I sat there listineing to him as he told his thoughts to me , I didnt know how to react or what to think all I know is , he better not pull that trigger. I hang th phone up and sit back taking a restless breath looking around and i pull my hair back. All these thoughts rome my mind. Me and Prince follow the same burden. He lost his mom , I lost my dad , we have been bullied and betrayed. We have even been looked sideways from others. But never in my life have i ever considered killing myself. All I could think of was his safety and how he was doing now. I knew he could handle himself , he is eighteen.
I walk in my mom's room seeing she was asleep after eating and the tv was running. I gave a side smile and took her plate and kissed her on the head goodnight. I didnt want my mom to remain unstable but my best bet was to take care of her until i get good news. I turned off the tv and walked out the room shutting her door tightly and made sure everything was clean and put up. I kept thinking about my little brother , and my past I dont dwell on my past but this was the only thing romeing threw my mind its ridiculous to me. I laid in my bed sleeping on my side. I had a nightmare , I can't really recall what it was about but I hope it wouldnt have to come down to it.
That next morning my mom was on her walker moving on her own, I was doing homework. It was 2:45p.m in the afternoon and I heard a knock on the door. " Who is that Avanna?" she says moving around. I shurgged my shoulders " I dont know ma" I say. She gives me a look and that means i better get my tail up an answer the door. "Okay okay!" I say dropping my book on the table and walking to the toward the door opening it. It was Prince , how in the hell did he get over here?. "Hey Avanna , mind if I come in?" he askes " sure... how did u get here" I say closing the door behind him " I took the bus with the only bus fair money I had" he says sitting on the couch looking around. " They did good , it looks nice" he says with a blank look." Hey sweeite pie , look at you , looking good now" my mom says moving her walker toward the bathroom , " Thank you Risa" he says and gives a fake smile. I stare at him and shake my head with a blank look. " Prince, whats going on" I say sitting next to him. I swore on the day he told me he had an affair with Raquel , I would never talk to him.
But that doesnt mean i cant still help him. " Avanna , I messed up big time and i wanted to apologize for it, it wasnt you it was me and ever since then i havent been myself I havent been home , I was just being forgetful on how you made me hapy inside and out. I didnt have that and I do now" he says having his hands in his blank leather jacket. "Prince i'm not worried about Raquel situation , what im worrid about is that gun" I say firmly. He sighs a bit looking away and pulls up his leather jacket checking his waist line as he pulls out his strap. Strap is another word for gun , it was solid black and didnt look loaded. "Prince .... dont tell me , you plan on using this?" I say standing looking dead at him. " No... I dont , my thoughts were in the wrong place , Avanna i just cant handle like right now , I just feel like God isnt wanting to much for me , I just want to die and ask him why?" he says. I look at him with my arms crossed and he can see i am not happy.
" Prince you sound stupid , real stupid! you dont go and hold a gun unless your lisenced and i can tell you arent! , you just cant carry a gun! you were held a prison for shooting a guy with a bee bee gun! and now u wanna carry a realive loaded one! , that can actually kill!?" I say shouting at him. " Avanna! i told you , my mind was in the wrong place! i only got it to actually test myself! we talked about it last night! , it was for protection because of the death threats i have gotten!" he shouts back. I turn away and i mumble under my breath about how ignorant he is. " Avanna , alot of things arent meant to be what the are , but you need to believe me i'm fine" he says pulling me a little closer. I wanted to ball my fist up and punch him in the face , it made sense for the reasons he had it , for protection i understood that. But was it really nesscary to look at a gun and say " It's my will".
" Prince things i say i dont usally mean , but you messing with Raquel , and then calling me the next day about your gun issues , makes me sick! all these things you said you wouldnt do! and look at you , a man with no sense! carrying a gun!" I shout. I was on fire I want himt to be alive, he has so much to live for. " Avanna , look.. i'll get out of your way if that is what you really want" he says walking toward the door. "Prince its not what i want , but yeah you need to leave , before this esclates into something nasty and my mom just got home yesterday , and i'm not trying to have any drama anymore" I say opening the door for him as a sign for him to leave. " Avanna , I just want you to know I love you with all honesty" he says shaking his head slowly and looking. "I love you too Prince" I say shutting the door softly as I look out the crack on the blinds seeing him run toward the bus almost pulling off. I hold my head and the move to my hips in such aggresion and tears escape my eyes.
What was I suppose to do , sit there and coddle him till the ends of time? , no! those arent my plans. What I need to do is find the survival of the heart and talk to the people that has betrayed me. starting with Raquel.
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RomanceA sassy teenager , or should I say adult , a 18 year old girl , named Avanna goes threw life with out her father , her father died at the age of 21, of type 4 cancer to the lungs, and she was only 7. Now she faces the world with a new father she cal...
