I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D ~ No more Fight left in me~

    I drive home and drop off Raquel and Romelo , I dont talk on my way home , I had nothing to say , I was trying to figure out were i was gonna take my little brother. Who could take care of Antonio? "Avanna , your not thinking about giving him away are you?" Prince askes , " No.. thats not even on my mind" I say with a nervous chuckle. I didn't want him to know I was pressuring to let my brother go. Only god knows how I feel. " Avanna , dont you see this is a trap! ," he yells , " Prince , what do you mean?! , if Ms.James had something to do with this , then it would have been proven.. im not gonna believe that" I park the car in his drive way. " Avanna , call me , if you need anything  but im telling  you , she wants you to see your mom" he says closing the door. I sit back and watch him walk inside. I punched the horn and it beeped and I slumped down in the car seat and began to drown in my tears.

  I needed a way to keep Antonio safe. I started the car and swerved off. I was crying all the way back to Ms.James house. As I pulled up into the drive way I parked the car and my heart raced , I knew she was home , he  room light was on. I unbuckled Antonio and looked at the windows making sure she didnt see me. I locked my car doors and ran all the way around the corner to Lukes mother and looking back was no option. All I could think was her chasing me down the street for this baby. I stopped at her door and I felt safe and I caught my breath. I held my weak hand up and knocked on the door as Antonio was whning for some food.

I knocked again and my vision started to get blurry as I sweating and breathing hard. " Yes darling " she opens the door tighting her robe , " Darling , whats wrong you look flustered"   she asked grabbing the baby and held me close like my mom use to do. " I-i just , I visited my mom today anddd..... , my mom said shes giving up Anotnio , andd... I need someone i can trust to take care of baby as small as him" I said as my eyes get faint and im dizzy. " Avanna sweetie step inside" she guides me inside putting Antonio down on the chair and unbuckling him. I sit down rocking back and forth putting my hand on my head. She gives me a water bottle and she sits next to me. " Now tell me Avanna , whats really going on?"  She asked holding her cup of hot chocolate. I didn't hasitate" I need someone to take my brother , my mom told me too , she is prarlyzed from her waist down, she isnt able to take care of a child , and i needed someone I could trust" I say looking at her. " Darling you looked flustered! , I will take Antonio untill your mother is better , but untill then you have to take him back" she says touching my cheek.

I looked at her and smiled and touching her hand , " Thank you , just pleasee.. pleasee make sure he will be safe here" I say choking up , " Don't worry child , i will.. no run along , you have school tomorrow" she says guding me to the door. " Is there anything he needs?" she askes as she takes the door open , " I'll bring them over in the morning" I say walking backwords. " Sounds good , thank you Avanna , i'll keep him safe" she sasy shutting the door tightly. 

I walked away holding my head and running back home. I walked into the house and she was laughing and eating popcorn in her room. I walked upstairs into the room and shut the door, I gotten more and more dizzy hearing voices as I kept waving the air. I fell out hearing my mothers voice and I had this vision , and vision I clearly remember. I was with my  father and I was little playing in the snow , and he just got out of jail. He had me on his shoulders and I was throwing snowballs at my mom, she was laughing and we were rolling in the snow , it was close to my birthday. At that moment I saw Ms.James in the dream with a evil look in her face and she would come and pop in and out of my mothers back. My head started spinning as it remembered the begnning of this story till now . Then I woke up gasping for air like I was under the water too long. I was sweating and I looked around I had a night gown on and my hair was in a ponytail. I looked around and it was sunshine outside and I was shaking looking around trying to predict were I was and how I got into this mess. 

  I got out of bed and took a shower and got my clothes on and made sure I didn't have HW to complete. I brushed my hair back and I held my heart back and started my car. and drived around the corner to Lukes mothers house. I got out the car and brought his bag of clothes and washing granments to the door and kncoked. " Hello?" she answeres " Hey here is his things , and his formula and stuff" I say smiling , " well looks like you are doing better darling , hopefully you will concertrate on school" she says holding him. I look at him and I kiss his head and walked away. " Have a nice day " I say starting the car and driving off. I didnt want to go to school , my gut was twisting. I felt sick. I felt like I had no more fight left in me.