I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D * Broken Angel*

      I Looked at Raqeul and gave her a small side smirk,"are you sure this is going to work Raquel?" I asked holding the tiny tube. " Yes! chica! , trust me this is going to get you money , and by the end of the day you will thank me" she said holding my shoulder. I looked at the women and I pointed to her, " hey is that the lady" I said with one hand in my pocket. " Yes chica! , finally you are starting to lighten up a little" she says tapping me and walks toward the lady. The young lady had a bandana around her hair and she was rubbing her self like she was cold. " Alright , thanks sista" she says handing off Raquel fifty dollars. I look at her with my head slightly tilted, I wondered why she was hugging herself. " Chica! , head up girl your going to give it away" she says holding my arm down and walking toward the playground and basketball court. " Raquel , I have to be home by 10:00pm" I say to her snatching my arm out of her hand. " Chica! , I understand you are doing this for Prince , but you gotta keep it on a low. No one can know you are doing this , if they do they will spill you like beans" she says shaking her head. I want to do it , but it doesn't seem right anyways!, I mean lets be real I could get this money on my own! this isn't they way I wanna set Prince free I wanna do it on my own. " Raquel , I give up you can take the money back , I have to do this my own way , not your way Prince would be proud of me if I got him out by doing whats right" I say backing away from her. " Chica! you can't give up now , the fun is almost here we got big money rolling in" she says looking at me , " Raquel i'm going to go look for a job i'll see you tomorrow , you can tell me about how all this went down" I say walking away and running out the gate and crossing the street. I looked back to see Raquel putting her hands on her hips looking confused and all stupid like, I mean who could blame me she always has that kind of look on her face when something doesn't got her way.

       I walked in the house and sat down on the couch to see my mom on the computer writing stuff down and she had her glasses on. I know my mom well enough that when she has her glasses on , she means buiness. " Momma , whats going on?" I ask walking up behind her , " nothing baby , i'm just trying to get into a collage good enough to get a good job it's never too late darling" she says taking off her glasses and looking at me. " I know momma , but it's just the way Raquel makes money is not good , and I don't want her in jail" I say ploping on the couch and laying my head on my fisit. I really do love my friends and family , but Raquel is like my sister I love her just as much as I love my mom , but the things she is doing makes me wonder why am I her friend. " well baby there are some left overs from yesterday night in the fridge, i'm going to bed gotta get up for work in the morning" she says turning off the computer and wobbleing to her room and shuting the door. I sat there in dead silence and tears rushing down my face, I don't understand why i'm crying it's werid and this is not a game. I have to find out some way to make money and get Prince out of jail.

      I ate some food from lasts nights dinner and went into my room and wrote in my jornual. "  Today wasn't the day for me it's sunday and yet God himself hasn't gave me the glory to stand up and give me stregth, I'm afarid I can't do this alone I need some type of help!"  Writting in my jorunal relives mt stress. It's easy to tell iv'e been going threw it and it's a struggle to keep up with the fast ones. Just as I was about to get comfy into my bed I got a phone call from Prince. Yes! I've wanted to hear his voice all day , just once knowing that he is okay. " Hello, Avanna?" he says , " yes Prince 'm here , how is everything are you okay?" I ask. I sat up in my bed and turned on my mini light and sat in the corner. " Oh man Avanna , it's just not where I wanna be right now , i'm too young stuff like this isn't me  not at all. I don't want to get caught up in this habit of being in and out of jail. I mean i'm only 18" he says to me in a depressing tone. "Prince you gotta fight past that, I understand you want out of there and i'm doing my best , but you proably wouldn't want to know how I tried to get money" I say with a chuckle in my voice. " Avanna? , how did you try to get money excatlly?" he askes in a serious tone and I could tell he wasn't messing around. I stopped and breathed out " I was with Raquel today and, I just" I stopped and it's like I knew what I was going to say. " Avanna, where you selling drugs!? to get me out of jail!?" he askes yelling a little , but he couldn't raise his voice. I got scared and I held the phone to my heart looking up and trying to fight it. " Prince I wasn't going to lie to you I tried to find another way but Raquel is my friend and she has been helping me threw it all, I needed her but I understood what she did was wrong and I--" I stop holding my forehead and wati for his reply. " Avanna , I don't want you selling drugs! to unknown people who don't got their head were it needs to be." he says with a strong and forceful tone like he was my father, " Prince i'm sorry I had no other choice I don't want you to be in there I want you out and free!" I say almost yelling. " Avanna it's bad enough i'm in here , but you are a good person and you can do better" he says to me. I stopped and sniffed up the tears I had I knew he wasn't going to like that idea and the fact that I did and almost got arrested for it made him even more mad. " Avanna, listen to me you find a way to get that money and do it in your own way" he says to me calmly like he was suppose to sound. " Yes I will as soon as possiable" I say nodding like he could see me. 

       " Avanna you are a strong girl and you have a good head on your shoulders. You are one of gods angles and it's too late for you to be broken" he says. I stare out the window and look at the stars as they shape a angle in the sky. " Prince I love you and I mean that , but I have to go , school tomorrow" I say smileing " alright  Avnna" he says hanging up. I put the phone down and back on the charger and get back ontop of my bed under the covers. A broken angle? , he's right I have a better mind set than any one of my friends and I need to use it. Tomorrow I'll get a job, do you see me dad?, your little girl is growing up.