I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D * To the Lost and Forgotten*

                     I remember waking up and missing the bus that morning , I got dressed and made sure I smelled good , I headed off walking to school I knew today was gonna be an awkward day. I wanted Prince with me so bad , but he isn't getting out till tomorrow , and there is something inside of me that wanted to go off and go stay with him in the hospital all day. The bell rang and I didn't have enough time to eat breakfast , I ran to class and sat next to Andre , he looked at me and asked " hey are you alright?" , " yeah i'm fine , thanks for asking" I said smileing. He was my only friend out of this whole situtation , yeah he may be a nerd , but to me he is cool like everyone else. The bell rung and we swtiched classes , I went to chior and I don't know why but I became so emotional that period , I didn't wanna lose it  I just kept in my head that he will be fine. "Hey chica , don't sweat it  he will be okay" she says rubbing my head , " yeah, I know  i'm just so upset , I don't know what to do". The biggest thing thats in my heart was Prince , it's not easy , " I just don't know what to do Raquel , it's hard" I say crying into her arms , " we will get threw this together , I mean what are friends for" she says holding me and patting my head , " you know I will be there threw thick and thin" she says to me with a big smile , I looked at her and said " Raquel , what would I do without you" I say laughing a little , starting to loosen up.  

      The bell rang for school to be out and I walked home that day , my mom was home and was cooking dinner , I sat my stuff down and ploped on the couch and cleared my throat. " Welcome home sweetie , listen Prince called and asked if you could stay home , till he got back" she says to me , " yeah sure" I cleared my throat again , I felt like I was getting sick I didn't want to get sick it's hard being sick. " Mom , I was so emotional today ," I said to her , " well sweetie , it will be alright  I mean we have alot put on our chestes we don't know how to deal with it , but I will always be here , when you need someone to talk to" she says touching my cheek whiping my tears away. I didn't know how to reply to that , I was scared I don't know how to deal with alot of things , it's hard. 

       I sat there , wating for Prince to call me , it was 10:09pm and I started to get worried , finally my phone rung and I got a call not even showing the number. " Princeton Perez"  It said , " an inmate at Boss County Jail , wants to speak with you" , I coverd my mouth and looked down as he said " Avanna ?" I didn't answer that time , I was to busy drowining in my tears , I was so choked up I had no words to say. " Avanna , I know your  there I can hear you breathing" he says in a nice clam tone , like he was about to cry. " Prince , I can't breath" I say holding back my tears. My mom came out rubbing my back and saying " just talk to him baby , it will be alright". I sit there, not talking to risk getting a head ache from crying of his voice being in jail!, and for what? " Prince , what happened?" I say with a clam tone , " Avanna! , when i was walking out the hospital I got jumped , and I had no self defense , I tried to fight back , but they put a gun to my head , I pulled out my bee-bee gun , and shot a guy in his head" he says with a clam voice , but he knows he wants to cry , " Prince , I can't  can't even hug you right now!" I yell at him , I was so fustrated , but at the same time happy that he is alive and safe somewhere , anywhere at this point.  

    " Avanna , I hope you can find it some place in your heart to forgive me , I need you here with me , is there anyway you can help me get out of here" he says crying. I knew he was, but the first thing that came out my mouth was , " did you tell your father?"  , he stayed silent and said softly " no I didn't " he says , I can hear how he was muzzling the phone close to his mouth. " Prince , i'll find someway to get you out , I just can't believe you are being like this!" I say , " well it's not my fault! , Avanna I wanted to come see you , and it's hard talking to you threw the phone! , i can't hug you , I can't kiss you! , I can't hold you close to me and tell you everything is going to be okay! , I can't and it's something I won't be able to do , if you don't help me!" he says yelling and crying , he was crying so hard it almost felt like a convo with my mother. I held the phone close to my chest and I breathed in and let my tears fall on their own. " Avanna? , answer me please don't leave me lost , and forgotten" he says , " please , I can't do it alone!" I hear him threw the phone but my heart is covering the sound , I hang up I couldn't take it, I knew I had to find some way for him to be away from jail and I knew how to do it.