I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.I.A.T.E.D * So Sick*

                    I laid in my bed thinking about if I should visit him , it's going to be hard to see him in that terriable jumper suit , and seeing him with his hair in braids instead of out in that cute curly afro , for a second i started to see the good things in this , but the bad things took over. I had a dream that changed into a vision , waking up that morning in a cold sweat. I dreamed about me , my mom and death, I never really had luck finding out why I had that dream but I wasn't so worried about it.

    My mom left that morning and i was forced to get myself ready , I got ready and got my keys and took my cadilac truck I had. I drove all the way to Boss County just to see him , still trying to put this dream together that seemed so real! , it felt like freddy crugor was trying to kill me. It was a 2 hour drive down there and i finally arrived , I showed my birth certificate and told them who I am here to see , they let me back there and I waited.

     I saw Prince coming out with chains on his hands and a gray like jump suit with four to five braids in his head , I coverd my mouth and as he saw me and begin to frizz up and cry , they took the chains off of him and they let him hug me. I hugged him so tight i didn't know what to do with myself because I didn't want to let go. Once again it felt like we were the only two people in the room, " Avanna , i'm so glad your here I thought you weren't going to come" he says holding my hands with a big smile , " yeah , I thought about it and it made me wonder he was gonan go crazy if he didn't see mwah!" I say laughing. He laughs along with me crying so hard and it's just such an emotional day for him.

    We talk about how the whole thing happened , and it makes more sense they pulled the gun out on him first , the guy who got shot isn't even dead he just has a miner head injury , what kind of shit is that!. Now i'm defently getting Prince out of here , even if it's between life and death. " Avanna , i never thought I would be in here at this age i mean i'm only 18 and its hard" he says whiping his forehead because of the heat. " Yeah Prince i don't want you in here , you don't need to be " I say holding his hands , we stare at eachother and we finally get a meaning of what LOVE is , he really loves me , from his body language and to what he says to me , and how he shows it love is just another feeling I have and this times , it's true. " Sorry mam  but you have to leave" the officer tells me and I look at Prince and hug him one good time and my tears fall on him as his does the same , hes the shortest out of the guys in the visit room , but fairly tall, " Avanna I love you please get me out of here I've been thru it all I don't need another life behind bars thats terriable " he says crying , I cry to him " don't worry i'm going to get you out of here" I say letting go of his hand while they lead us out the bulding.

    As I get in my car and drive away I get an emergancy call from my mom telling me the baby is coming, I almost got in a werck , the baby isnt even 4 months yet , I was so afarid that my only sibling was going to die to lack of production of the lungs , or the heart , or any other important organ that belongs in the body. I hurry and zoom home to pack some stuff and head directly to the hospital , luckily for us we already bought baby stuff for the baby to sleep , eat and be warm in.

    I get to the hospital and ask for her room number and they let me in , my mom was in this mechine and it looked really bad I was scared for my life. I walked over to my mom and touched her face and kissed her forehead , I didn't know what to do but sit back and watch the clock. 

    The doctors came in sitting her up and telling her they need to do emergancy C-section because the baby was on the verge of dying for lack of hydration , my mom wasn't drinking like she was suppose to. I don't even think she knew i was there she was so far off the chain because of the gas they gave her. They gave me doctor gear to put on while they were back there and I didn't go in because I wanted to wait in the wating hall , nobody was there expect me , I felt so alone! I didn't know what to do. I'm so sick of being alone I can hear myself breathing and my own heart beat, don't make me think about this I prayed for my mom , I was so sick I didn't know what to do , the only man and father i could count on was God himself.