I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D * I'n my Own little Circle*

        Life is a big surprise. We got done eating then we played a little at the arcade we were at. He would look at me and smile when he saw me smile for the frist time he has met me. Wait so he hasn't been noticeing my smiles toward him , small world I swear.  When we felt like the fun time was over , we left the arcade and we drove around. He seemed like a quite guy , didn't talk about anything much , only when i'm upset or anything. I finally stepped up and said something before he did " So this date was pretty fun , thanks for taking me out" I say with a smile looking out the window. " Your welcome , and i'm glad I got to know you" he says driving the car and he laughs at me. I started to wonder why he was laughing , so I looked at him and asked " why are you laughing?", " Oh , it's just you , no girl is ever this shy and cute to me , they always try to act hard and big and bad whenever they see me , but you , you keep it ture and real " he says as he slows down the car and parks it infront of a brigde like fence and I look out the window and I see we are on the beach. " Well do you want to get out?" he askes, I look at him " you dont have to tell me twice " I say jumping out the car taking off my socks and shoes. He walks behind me with his shoes on and hands in his pocket , his afro blows in the wind , I stop and look at him , he is just so gorgoues. " well this is the sunset veiw of things" he says, I look at him as the tide blows in on my feet. " I come here when I wanna think about things , and let alot of things set in , I thought since the news of this afternoon blew on you you might wanna sit and take a breather" he says , he is sitting down holding his knees like a boy would and he just sits there looking at the sun. I look at the sun also  , but I sit next to him, " yeah , about thew news I kinda got over it untill you brought it up" I said , " well i'm sorry , but i'm glad you got over it , when i'm here nothing can surpase me , nothing bothers me, it's just so clam" he says looking at the sun then looking at me.

          "You feel like your in your own little circle huh?" I ask , " yeah , " he laughs then look sat me , and then I look at him. His eyes are so beautiful , they sparkle in the sun shine and his eyes matched the back ground we were in , it felt kind of like a movie. " You know , you aren't like other girls , you are different , in a good way" he says smiling at me , then I smile back but then he notices. Finally! i thought I was going to go crazy , " wow you have a pretty smile" he says , "thanks" I say back then I lean my head on his shoulder , I was nervous as first but the butterflies landed and I muzzled up against him. He did the same with his head , I felt so releaved I never had this feeling with a guy , the others where trash and lame , they had no taste, no fashion , all they wanted was sex , like any other boy!. But he was different he actually took me on a date like he said he would , and I feel thats one commiment in take off.

      We were on the beach for a good half hour then we got up walking back to the car holding hands, the sand was on my feet from walking in the water but I washed it off by the near bathroom , I always bring flipflops with me in my pruse so that was a bonus. As we were driving he would drive fast past neighboorhoods , you know the "hood" the "projects" he wouldn't think of the speed limit he was driving , but I got a little scared so I would ask him to slow down , and he did. I never asked why , but I wanted to know really bad. He dropped me off at home , " I'll call you tonight okay" he says , " yeah i'll make sure I'll pick up " I say getting my stuff and my food I wanted to take home. I smiled as he did when he pulled off. I walked into my house my mom was on the couch smoking her weed looking at photo albums, " hey mom" I say, I look at the clock that read 7:08pm , " hey Avanna , um how are you darling did you have fun" she said , looking high as ever , and I had just remebered she wasn't suppose to smoke!. " Mom you know better" I said snatching the blunt from her and putting it out and throwing it away , " avanna why you do that?" she askes in a clam tone , oh yeah she was high , anything eles but high." you don't need to be smoking"  I said to her sitting next to her " but I need to sleep  I can't sleep , but anyways . how was the date? , did you have fun?" she asked , I notice when my mom askes questions about me , shes sad , or has been crying. " it was fun , we had lunch  , we played at the arcade , then we went to the beach" I said looking at her. " thats good babygirl , just making sure your okay and alive" she says with a sniff. I am so boiling angry! , "that man" let for "work" he says , he has a pregenet wife on his hands but he is out at a time like this! , please work my big ass! " well mom tell me if you need anything , i'm going to go get ready for school , " I say and then I kiss her on her cheek " I love you mommy" I say , " I love you too baby" she says putting her head back. I walk upstairs shutting my door and taking off my flipflops and I wanted to call Prince , but he is on his way home , I wanted to know why in the hell would he leaves his wife, he doesnt even work these hours!. No , "that man" is cheating  on my mom!?, bullshit! , I punched the pillow.

      Why my mother , hasnt she been put threw enough! , she's pregenat!  by "this man" and he wants to louge around! , not today , not anyday , and defentally not in my house!.