I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D

I.S.O.L.A.T.E.D ~Dark Horse *Final Chapter Part: 2 ~

     " Avanna is everything alright?" my mom askes coming out the bathroom on her walker. " Everything is fine moma , go lay back down and relax , your moving around to much" I say pushing her gently " Girl! , i am 26 years old , im not even suppose to be on a walker!" she says as i push her. I laugh , it makes me a little happy my mom has her sense of humor. " Well , what are you doing today?" she askes crossing her wrist. " I'm going to go see Raquel , i need to go visit her and talk to her , we have issues we need to discuss" I say taking the pride that i had not to choke up infront of my mom. " Well be careful baby , and can you bring me home some chocolate , moma needs chocolate in her life" she says covering herself in her blankets. I nod and smile "yeah moma" I get up and put on my shoes. 

   I didnt want to go talk to Raquel , because she betrayed me , having friends is like a curse when they arent the ones to be played with. I got in my car and started it staring off into space not thinking for a second I accidently reversed and then i pushed the breaks. I got scared but then slowly pulled it into dirve and slowly drove off. I wasnt going to call Raquel letting her know i was coming , I havent talked to her since yesterday. 

     I pull up infront of her house and park the car and i force myself back in my seat unbuckleing my seat belt and I slowly get out the car. I walked up to the house and knocked on the door. I crossed my arms waiting for an answer and nothing. I knocked again , im pretty sure she was here , her car was there and i know when she isnt here. Her mom answered the door as Romelo was on the couch. "Oh , Avanna sweeite..." she said , sounding low , and life lost. " Hey , um may I speak to Raquel , I really need to talk to her , we got into an argument the other day at Romelo's house and I didnt get a chance to actually hear what she had to say" I say gulping as to hear what she would say. " Oh , Avanna..." she says choking up and she covers her mouth and I slowly dropped my amrs looking at her. " Whats wrong,.. did I say something?" I say peeking in as Romelo gets off the couch and hold Raquel's mom close and he looks at me. " Avanna , I have something to tell you" he says stepping out shutting the door. I look from side to side confused. Why was his mom crying? , why did she shoke up? , was i really the problem? " Avanna , ... Raquel commited suicide 3 hours after you left yesterday" he says with his hands in his pockets. 

     I stand there as the wind blows my hair and all i can remember is my heart sinking slowly. "... Romelo... j-just let me in okay! , i dont have time for jokes right now!" I say with a choked up tone but i was angered. " Avanna! , no one is joking! Raquel is dead! okay! , as much as I didnt want to believe it! i had to deal with it! she killed herself alright!" he says gripping onto my arms. I shake him away and I hold my head as tears jerk down my face. " Why!? , was it what I said, ! oh my god! , Raquel!" I say , as I fall to my knees and cry harder then ever before. I havent cried this hard since my father died. " I know , I know .. its alright , it isnt your fault" he says stroking my hair softly.

     I sat there shaking hard, what was I suppose to think! I never knew Raquel killed herself! , why didnt anyone tell me!?, It had to be my fault. " She was my bestfriend and she's dead!" I say standing and walking pacing the porch. " Avanna , her mother has been in a depression , ever since then i have had to stay with her making sure she was okay... im sorry we should have told you as soon as we could" he says holding my hands. I didnt want to be believe it , Raquel and I have been threw alot all our lives, and now ... she is dead? " I have to go" I say walking towards my car and getting into it. I sat there and banged on the wheel and I cried untill I couldnt cry anymore.

     Everything wad crumbleing slowly! , I never knew this happend! , what am I suppose to do!. I loved her , i didnt mean everything I said. All I did was pray in the car and asked for her forgiveness , she is in a better place. But it wasnt her time. I start the car and pull off fast but I slow down a little knowin my anger could get me in a wreck. I pull into a diner and go for lunch. I sat there thinking about how she would have killed herself. I wanted to get rid of the thought. I finished my lunch and paid for it. I had enough money to pay for what I had , but I still needed a job. I was not going to work For Ms.James anymore after her trying to steal me and my little brother. And then it hit me! , I ran to the car and drove off to where Antonio was. I havent seen my brother since I left him with the women. I wanted to see him. His face and him whining or moving could get my mind off of the Dark Horse galuping across the fileds in my head.