Miks
First cardinal rule: Make peace with your past so it won't mess up with your present.
Make peace with Jikko so he won't mess up between me and Jr.
Woooh! Today is the day! Yeah right, friends. Makikipag kita na ako kay Jikko. We both decided na dito na lang kami mag kita sa StarBucks near Taft para hindi daw hassle sa akin. So I just agreed.
Twenty minutes later pa nung dumating si Jikko.
"Sorry, Miks I'm late." Bungad niya. Haay, Jikko. Still that tall, moreno and handsome guy I used to hold hands with way back in fourth year highschool. Damn feels.
"No, Jikks. Napa aga lang ako."
He walked towards the counter and ordered our food. He handed me my favorite piece of cake and my favorite drink.
"You still remember it, huh?" I asked. Shit, sobrang hirap. I'm willing to give Jr a chance because he's a good guy and he deserves it. I like him too and I can't and I won't deny that. But sometimes, when I look at things, its Jikko's face I'm seeing. Ayaw ko lang maging unfair kung kanino man.
"How would I forget, Mika--
"Miks. Just call me Miks. Our friends started calling me Miks after us happened."
"Sorry. So as I was saying Miks, how would I forget the little things if ikaw mismo hindi ko nakalimutan."
Shet Jikko. You're making things hard for me. Ganito talaga ba ang feeling kapag kailangan ng closure?
"So, closure huh?" He asked.
"Yes, please. You see, I badly wanted to move on. Well I thought I already did.... Well, I-I did, but not totally."
"You see, Miks. Wala din akong alam kung papaano ba sinisimulan or kung papaano ba nangyayare ang isang closure dahil alam natin, dahil ang isa't isa ang first love natin. Mali nga siguro, na jinowa ko ang bestfriend ko."
Yep, bestfriends since we're in diapers.
I just nodded. He's right.
"Who's the lucky guy?" He asked again.
"Vincent John Renz G. Torres. La Sallian engineer." He just smirked.
"Well, I bet he's damn handsome and down to earth. You must love him na talaga. Cos because of him you're willing to take the risk again.... You're willing to move on... He better take care of you and wag niya akong gagayahin."
"Jikko, you've been a very good boyfriend. But siguro nga, we had the right love at the wrong time." Napatawa naman kami.
"Ano nga bang nangyare satin, Miks? Why did we sink?"
"We're both busy kasi graduating tayo noon. Tapos mag kakalayo pa nga tayo. Kasi mag kaiba na tayo ng school. Maybe we were too young, we let us drift apart."
Dead air.
"Miks, I think this is a bad idea kung sasabihin ko pa ito but sasabihin ko na rin. Sorry. Sorry kung may pag kukulang or may pag kakamali man ako bilang bestfriend, boyfriend at friend mo ngayon. I want you to move on. Para maka move on na rin ako. Kasi its clear to me na I'm the one who's holding on much stronger. You're giving up. Wala na akong habol. Kahit mahal kita, mahal mo na din siya. Mas mahal mo siya kasi we won't be here naman if it wasn't for him. You see, I don't want to be the iceberg who's gonna be the reason why your titanic feelings for Jr will sink. So I'm sorry."
"Jikko wala ka namang dapat ika sorry e. Pero nasabi mo na. Sorry din. Sorry kung hindi kita naiintindihan noon kapag busy ka. I was damn too selfish. Sorry and thank you."
"Can I call you Mika again?"
"Sure Jikks."
"Waah! You called me Jikks again! We used to call each other Jikks and Mika when we were young! Hahahaha so I guess..... Friends?" Iniaalok naman niya sa akin yung kamay niya for a hand shake.
"Naaah, I don't wanna be friends with you..... Gusto ko bestfriends!"
"Bestfriends?"
"Bestfriends!"
We shook hands. I guees we're back at it again.
"Mika, favor?"
"Ano yun? Sige sige bilang first day of being best friends natin ulit!"
"Can you spend your time with me for the coming weeks?"
"Bakit, Jikks?"
"I'm leaving. Lilipat na kami sa France. Well I don't wanna miss a thing with my bestfriend while I'm here pa. Oo, there's skype and facetime but at least last memories with you here in the Philippines? For good na kami dun e."
"Sure, Jikks. Sure."
After that ay inihatid niya na ako sa dorm namin. Hindi alam ni Jr na nakipag kita ako kay Jikks, only Ej and Kira.
Masayang masaya naman yung dalawa nung binalita ko na okay na. Yun nga lang hindi ko parin muna sasabihin kay Jr na I'm choosing the tower over the King. Gusto ko sa tamang panahon.
Soon, our ship will be sailing too.
