33 Reasons Why

Reason 6

Reason 6: Now my heart's breaking and I don't know what to do.

Dear Esther,

Damn, it's been 1 month and a half since you've disappeared without a word. I mean, it felt like it's been years because a day without seeing you feels like eternity.

I've been doing better, I guess? I'm trying hard to put my life back on the line for you. I don't want you to be disappointed in me when you come back. At some point, I'd stalk your social medias to see if you posted anything, but you didn't.

Your mom is a huge mess. I rarely see her out now and I was planning to go and visit her. She could really use a friend. When I arrived at your doorstep, she opened the door and she looked like absolute shit. Her eyebags were visible and she looked like she haven't shower in ages.

She let me in and both of us sat down on the couch and she started crying. She was rambling on how it was my mistake for letting this happen and for leaving you alone. I knew partly, why you disappeared was because of me. She told me that ever since I stopped coming and left you, you've changed a lot.

I hugged her and told her how sorry I was for failing at taking care of you and for breaking my ultimate promise: not to break your heart. She told me it's okay and that she's been hiring some good people to look up onto your case. I told her that she should start cleaning up, at least, because you could come back anytime. She smiled at me and hugged me once more. I was back on good terms with your mother.

I've never really had the guts to go into the room after your sudden disappearance because I know I wouldn't be strong enough. But I think I'm ready now. I asked for your mother permission and she nodded. When I opened the door of your bedroom, a sense of home hit me. It's been a while since I've felt this way.

Your room stayed untouched and your smell still lingered around which I appreciated by sniffing in your scent that relaxed the thought of me. I laid on your bed and realized it's been so long since I've laid on this bed with you. I didn't realize I was crying when tears were slipping out and I rubbed the tears away.

I was going through your table when I saw the picture of both of us on my 16th birthday. I can't help but turned the picture around and I found something unexpected:

9th April 2012, The way your eyes glimmers under the moonlight, I'll be fine on the other side, please take care of yourself. Xx

On the other side? What did that mean? On the other side might mean a lot of things like the other side of country or the other side like, heaven or something like that.

Suddenly, I had the hope that never was there rising up in my heart as I ran out your room and found your mom. I told her that you left us a clue. And that there's highly chances you're still alive. I went back home and tried placing everything together.

I'll find you till the end of the world even if there's wasn't any because the world has no end.

Signed,

Kade

A/N: Ooohhh, other side of the world?? What does Esther mean by that?? Where do you think she settled in?? Comment down the country you have in your mind!!

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