Listen to Nothing Like Us covered by Jungkook from BTS
Reason 28: But that is the past now, we didn't last now.
Sometimes when I think through the times we've been through together, this is defiantly the hardest. She's here but not here at the same time. There are times where nothing is wrong and then she's back to distancing herself.
I know we didn't clean it off in a clean end and I'm still hoping something. I know everything is my fault but there's nothing I could fix all of the mess I've created. But I think now, I really know the loss of someone you really love.
Where they are there but not there at the same time and the bond you shared is just not there anymore. I know this is bad but I can't think straight. I don't know what hurt more – being friends with her or act like complete strangers.
Without realizing the tears escaped my eyes, "Kade!" Emily called me.
"Yeah, sunshine?" I asked her.
Noticing my sore eyes, she asked me. "Why are you crying?"
"I just miss someone."
"Esther?" she asked.
I looked away and stared at the walls.
"It's not your fault, you know, Kade," Emily said, "You weren't thinking straight so you thought what you did was the best."
"But I'm still not okay that you didn't want to help her when she was in her roughest phase but now that she's okay, you should be glad."
"The reason behind her happiness might not be you anymore but I know seeing her happy sums up your happiness."
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33 Reasons Why
Short StorySTATUS: COMPLETED [BOOK #2: Letters to Esther] He has 33 reasons why he wants her to come back and waits patiently for her because he believes that love will find its way.
