33 Reasons Why

Reason 18

Reason 18: Can't be on my own without you.

Dear Esther,

Everything makes sense now. I know where you are.

It's almost a year since you went away and everything is falling to pieces. I solved all the clues that you gave.

First, with the photo, the 'X' and your caption all related to The Fault In Our Stars.

And this two things opened up my eyes and gave the answer to the question we had been asking.

In Ed Sheeran's song,

I can hear your heart

On the radio beat

They're playing 'Chasing Cars'

And I thought of us

Back to the time,

You were lying next to me

I looked across and fell in love

So I took your hand

Back through lamp lit streets I knew

Everything led back to you

So can you see the stars?

Over Amsterdam

You're the song my heart is

Beating to

And John Green's quote:

"Some tourists think Amsterdam is a city of sin, but in truth it is a city of freedom. And in freedom, most people find sin."

I know where you are but I don't find the will in myself to go out and look for you.

There must be some reasons why you left and disappeared one day without warning.

It's like telling us, you want to start over and you want to find yourself. So I'm fulfilling your wish.

I'll leave you alone and give you some space until you're ready to come back.

I'll be waiting, don't worry. I'll still wait even if it takes ages.

Because you're worth it.

Signed,

Kade