33 Reasons Why

Reason 33 - last reason

Reason 33: Forgiveness is the final form of love.

I knocked on her door as I tried to calm myself down that this is for the best. This is for us and I'm doing this for me, her and us.

She opened the door and was surprised that I was standing in front of her.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" she asked.

I grinned, "Hey. I just wanted to talk for a while with you."

She looked at me and gestured me to come in, "Yeah, sure. Come in."

I looked around the room and sat down on the sofa, "Is your mom here?"

She went out from the kitchen and put the jug that was filled with orange juice and shook her head, "She just went out."

I cleared out my throat before I start talking. "So I wanted to talk about what happened."

She nodded her head as she gestured me to keep on talking.

"For the 1 year that you were gone, I realized a lot of things, actually," I said, as I looked down to the floor.

"You were gone and I was lost. I knew that you were gone to find yourself, and I'm happy that you've finally found yourself," I looked at her and smiled.

I sighed, "But somehow, when you came back here and I saw you, everything comes back to me and I've missed you so much that I wanted the one thing that I've always wanted: to make you mine."

"Some of the things that I did to you were unforgiveable, I know. I've been a dick and all to you but I'm learning to be better. I'm learning to forgive myself even if it would be one hell of a journey."

I chucked as tears were threatening to fall down from my eyes, "I won't take much of your time and I'll keep this short. I'm here to ask for forgiveness. For us to forgive each other to mess up what we once have. For us to stay friends despite what happened and for us to let go of the past that formed a dark hole in our life."

I looked at her, with tears breaming in my eyes, "For me to able to forgive myself for ruining us before it even started."

She looked at me with a smile on her lips; she opened her arms and hugged me, "I forgive you, Kade."

I sobbed into her arms and I know I look so pathetic but it was all that I need.

It was all that I need that I wasn't an idiot and I'm a human and we are all humans. It was all I need so that I can forgive myself.

She whispered into my ears where it would only me that could hear it, "I love you. I never stopped and never will."