Her Random Thoughts (Confessions)

Secret Love Song

Why  can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftop.

I wish that we could be like that. Why can't we be like that?

Cause I'm yours..

Have you ever been in a situation where all people didn't want to be in?

Where the number one requirement is you have to be good pretender. Great in faking your emotions.

Where the game 'HIDE AND SEEK' do exist. No scratch that. What I mean is 'HIDE AND SICK' yes SICK. I prefer SICK because that's what you're going to feel once you are on the starting line.

Most of us, people.. are so quick to judge when it comes to 'FORBIDDEN LOVE'

Yes, it's wrong. Everybody will agree on that.

But let's not judge those people based on the surface. Let us know the scaffolding first. Let's understand where they are coming from.

Everyone of us has their deepest secret. Most of us were hiding on the mask we wore.

Just like them.. no.. just like US. Yes. Me. Him. Us.

And that's our deepest secret. Our forbidden love affair.

Like what I've said, please don't be too quick to judge.

Being in that situation doesn't mean I really want to. 

Being the third-wheel doesn't always mean that I am the bad one who like nothing but to wrecked every relationships I know.

Sometimes, we are just forced by the circumstances.

Sometimes, we only agreed to be one of them because we didn't have any choice but to accept it.

In the story of our life, it's so typical and cliche that we are the main protagonist. The princess. The one being sympathized by many. The good one.

But no. Not in my story. 

It may be ironic but it seems like I am the main antagonist in my own story. The wicked witch. The one being criticized and judged  . The evil one.

But before you mocked me, throw hurtful words at me, hear my side first.

Because let's accept it. We, people always conclude and decide right after hearing only the one side of the story and not with the other.

We are always on the protagonist's  side. But do we ever wonder what's the antagonist's side? Have we ever been interested to know the other side? I bet no.

And that's unfair for me. That's being unfair and biased.

Because some of them, us.. has  a story we've been dying to share with.  Dying to be heard.

Well in my case, it's really obvious that being the third-wheel wasn't my choice.  I wasn't always doing it on my free will.

Of course I never really wanted to hide.. to be hide. Because in fact, I was his first love. I met him first. We became close first. I had him first.

Its just that unfortunate happenstance erased it.

But I'm telling you, I am his princess years back then.