Her Random Thoughts (Confessions)

A letter from my happy personality to my sad soul.

You are in the eye of a storm. You breathe. You are watching the threatening walls of this storm that jeopardizes your perimeter. But, the air is still so you can get yourself together. Bracing for the next wave.

You call for help. But you really don't need one. Left to your own devices you make a plan. Worthless. But keeping you occupied.

I know that you never imagined that you'd end up here. You had big plans and bigger dreams, and it was something you never saw coming. It was silent, sneaky. It crept up on you like a lion going in for the kill. You didn't see what was happening until it consumed you.

But I want to remind you of a few things.

No one thinks less of you because you struggle with this. Even when it might seem that you are more alone than ever before, you have the support of a family who loves you endlessly and friends who love you wildly. There is an army assembled behind you, ready to fight the battle with you until the very end.

Always remember how blessed you are. I know that it's hard to wake up in the morning and put a smile on your face for family and friends. Your body feels heavy, and life seems hopeless and impossible. But listen to me, you are not a failure. You are not a failure. You have a life that so many dream of, and the potential to do amazing things. Use it.

You might call yourself insane for the thoughts that you have, drowning you, but if you're going to think of insanity, think of the insane amount of courage it takes to fight this every day. Think of the obstacles that you overcome with the smallest of victories. Every smile is a thing of wonder, every second that you live to see is miraculous and beautiful.

The world would not be better without you in it. There is no laugh like yours, your voice cannot be replicated, your smile is breathtakingly unique. No one thinks in exactly the same way, or loves in precisely the same fashion. There is no other you, and there will never be another you for all eternity. You were placed here by a perfect and unfailing God for a divine and beautiful purpose; you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Keep on fighting.

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