Life is dull
without someone
who will commiserate
with you
on even the
smallest things,
let alone be able
to stick by you
in all things.
It seems so strange
that what I'd had
could slip away
so easily.
And I hate it.
I hate
how I feel now:
betrayed,
disoriented,
lost -
among other feelings.
I hate how
there is
nothing
I can do
to resolve the situation.
Above all,
though,
I hate
how I can't let go,
how I keep hoping
that things will change -
because Matty,
as I've come to find,
is anything but predictable.
But maybe
my feelings
are, too -
because I never
would have predicted
how I would come
to feel
after all she's
done for me.
Without preventative company,
the bigotry at school
ensues with vigor
on the part of
my witless tormentors.
Seth and his people
seem to go
out of their way
these days
to bother me,
as if they have
nothing better
to do with themselves
than harass the one
non-binary student
in the whole school -
the only one anyone
knows of,
anyway.
Art class becomes
a living hell
for me.
Besides his
idiotic queer comments
every ten seconds,
Seth has even
gone so far as to
intentionally trip me,
or knock paint over
onto my projects,
or, worse yet,
lock me in the
supply closet
when I'd gone in to
fetch materials
for our teacher.
Oblivious as she is,
said teacher had opened
the door
with some surprise
after I had been
yelling for someone to
let me out
for at least five minutes.
"Oh, there you are,"
she'd said
wonderingly,
ushering me out.
"What were you doing
in there?
We all thought
you had gotten up
and left."
That was the
first
and last time
I would fetch paintbrushes
from a closet
large enough to
walk into
in this school -
that much,
I'm sure of.
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This is mostly just setting up the next bit, which will start going into better situations for Cam and Matty. And, y'know, possibly some explanation as to what the hell is going on with her, too.
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Ficção Adolescente"There are a million shades of grey between their black and their white - but no one ever cares to see them." In a world with a limited view of gender, Cam Shills struggles to come to terms with their identity as neither male nor female, a shade of...
