If Life Was Like a Poem

Hate Me Anyway

I can be normal
Around everyone else
But the moment you're there
My mind seems to stop
I freeze out of fear
Unable to respond
Things never seem
To work out like I plan

I don't mean to act the way I do
Swatting your kind hand away
And avoiding you at all costs
It's my reaction
My fear of rejection
In my mind
I want to take your hand
To braid my fingers in with yours
I want to walk beside you
Like old friends

You probably think I hate you
But my feelings couldn't be farther
I'm so afraid that I'll mess up
And turn out to be something you hate
But as I force you back
More and more each day
You'll probably turn out
To hate me anyway