If Life Was Like a Poem

Sparkle of Mine

I don't exactly remember
How we first met
The memory seems vague
For I certainly didn't take so fast
You claim we shared a stand
Side by side
But I only remember a small little boy
Lost
And looking for a room
I was helpful
I liked that I could be helpful to you
Even though I would never see you again
Or so I believed
Now I look back and
Try so hard to find the exact memory
The moment in time
When did I learn your name?
It seems I always knew your name
When did I receive your number?
I feel as though it's always been in my phone
How long ago was it
Where I went to sleep
Without knowing you?
My brain has forgotten
The most important part of
What makes us us
And now I wish I could say
I fell I love with you at first sight
That I longed for months
But I could not convince myself of such a feat
Now you are so tall now
Handsome and wide eyed
It's difficult not to stare blankly
For I can barely see a difference
From that little lost boy in the hall
To the young man who stands beside me
Today
He has the same smile
Soften and well worn
And the same laugh, only slightly deeper
And his words are just as kind
Only more careful
Honesty is new
But the tension is still there
And I wish I could recall those first few moments better
Perhaps you wouldn't look the same as you do now
Perhaps I'd see a difference
But perhaps
My eyes have only grown
To adore you from the warmth of your presence
And less of your looks
When did you get so tall? So much taller
Than even I?
You were my baby
Mine to care for
And now you look after me
Help me along and encourage me
You tolerate me more than I myself
And it pains my chest to think
Your kindness is so free
Without a thing to return
I wish to return the kindness
But my lips no longer speak well
I want to say it soon
The way that I feel
But my body refuses
My mind tricks itself into silence
I am trapped inside my mind screaming
And every opportunity that dishes itself before me
Goes uneaten to my clenched jaw
So I sit in agony
Begging you to see
To look back in my eyes
And read the thoughts my lips fear
Thank you
For everything
For the first moments
To the lasts
Thank you for holding me together
I'm sorry I could do no more than guide you down the hallway
Now I leave you at your destination
Taller than me
Braver than me
And as you walk away
I whisper
Those ill fated words
To my ears alone