S/HE

The Mind Forgets

 Jason went home with me tonight. And I'm going to make this count. I'm not going to waste this opportunity because anytime soon, I know that Satan will come down here or bring me up to battle me or kill me for breaking the rules. This is for us. For me and Jason.

"Jason, this is where we made love" I said.

"You mean the bed. You're talking sexually?" he said.

"No. No. Our relationship is not about that. It's about us giving love" I said.

"Really?" he said.

"Well, maybe a little about that" I said.

"Yeah. Where's your parents?" he said.

"Oh. Both of my parents died. I'm the only living here. Well, both of us. But you left me so..." I said.

"I don't know why I did that. But I'm sorry" he said.

"It's okay. It's not your fault. You just fell on some tricks" I said.

"What can we do to bring back my memories?" he said.

........................................................................... The next day.........................................................................

We had sex the whole night. I know that it didn't help him but don't judge me, I was waiting for that my whole life, since I met Jason. Is it bad that I'm lying? To Liam? To everyone? To Jason? I feel a little bit guilty that I'm using his condition so, I can get what I want. But I deserve this. Right? It wasn't fair when Liam did it. So, I can do it too right? Well, for Liam, he didn't really use his condition but he still stole him from me and that's worse!

"Do I really have to go to Liam?" Jason said.

"Yeah babe. I just want to be fair. Even though we both know you belong here" I said.

"I know. But I think you're right. I should try at Liam's as well because maybe I'll remember something there" he said and left.

Shit. Why did I have to be nice and pretend that I want to be fair? Like WTF am I thinking?! Even though, he left. I went after him and asked him if I could come with him. And he said yes. Let see what this bitch, Liam, is up to. Liam opened the door.

"Hi Jason" Liam said.

"Hi Liam!" I said and stopped him before he could hug Jason.

"What are you doing here?!" Liam said.

"I told him he could come" Jason said.

My plan is really working well. Jason is starting to defend me from Liam. Liam must be crushed! YES! That's part of my plan. When I went inside, I forgot this place. And it's my home. I don't remember anything that happened in this house. Our good memories together as a family. Well, I think it's better this way. Cause' I don't feel or I don't have a family anymore. Jason is the only one left for me.

"Jason. My goal is to make you remember so, I took this game from Jerrica's room" Liam said.

"Who's Jerrica?" Jason asked.

"Why did you take that? That's m.... That's your sister's! It's not polite" I said.

"Jerrica's your sister?" Jason asked.

"Yes. She died. Because of me (Liam started crying). It was all my fault. I should have been the bigger person. I shouldn't have been selfish. I should have put myself into her shoes. I knew that she was struggling and in pain. But I didn't approach her. She was too angry at me. She died because of me" Liam said, while crying and Jason hugged him.

I felt angry because I think he just did that so, Jason could feel sympathy for him. But the words that Liam said got stuck in my mind.

"Okay, can we skip the drama?" I said and interrupted their hug.

"You're right. That was the past. So, this is the game that my family always play. And you played with us too Jason. It's called Kiss, Suck, Swallow" Liam said.

"That's inappropriate!" I said.

Then, I was talking to myself in my mind. How could I forget this game? It was our tradition. It was my favorite part every month. Why am I forgetting things? Whatever. We played the game and it got dirty. And I forgot that it's supposed to be like that so, I was shocked a little bit. After we played the game, Liam showed us photo albums.

"This is me and my best sister in the whole world together" Liam said and we're looking at the time we met Jason. And shockingly, I forgot that time. Even though I said that like 2 days ago. I remembered that 2 days ago. I knew that 2 days ago. Why am I forgetting things?

"This is the love letters we sent to each other. But it got complicated when my sister thought that you were sending letters to her" Liam said.

Then, Jason's head started hurting. And so, did mine. I couldn't remember that time either. What's going on? What's happening to me? I thought Jason's the only one who lost his memory. Is that what's happening to me as well? But why? How?

Note: I'm confused. And scared. I don't know what's going on with me.