Missing Half

Missing 32

Zach's POV

["Zach! May nag imbeta sa gang natin. Does this.."]

"Yes" I answered without hesitation. What's the point of making this long. Alam naman nila na hindi ako titigil hangga't hindi ko nakikita ang kakambal ko. Ito ang isa sa mga paraan ko na mahanap siya. 

["How does this even related in finding her Zach!?"] rinig kong iritadong tanong sa kabilang linya. Ang kaninang mainit na ulo ko ay ngayon mas lalong nag init. 

"You are not obliged to fight with me. I can do better with myself only." matigas kong sabi sa kanya. 

[You're so impossible! We are your gangmates Zach, we think of your own welfare and we too are your friends just to inform you. We cared for you!]  

I ended the call and threw the damn phone. I shut my eyes hoping I could somehow rest but I can't. The disappointment I had been giving to my gangmates are filling my mind. Ang mga mukha nila na hindi ma ipinta simula ng tumatanggap ako ng mga imbitasyon sa kahit sinong gang at pag anyaya at paglalaban ko ng mag-isa ay hindi nila gusto. I am this desperate!

Months passed after the encounter of Kuya Ice and I. Months had passed since they agreed on me staying away from them. They gave me condo unit and it is where I am right now. Months had passed since I last saw them but the communication with them is still active. I went to school, I fight with other gangs, I research for more informations. That's how I live my life now. 

I just can't escape to the thought of them rejoicing because I am now gone in the mansion. I can't escape the thought of mom being stress-free and relieved because atlast the burden Zach is now far from her sight.

Happy they really are. 

"Puta yung pinsan ko! Baliw na ata! Gwapo kami oo pero parang sobra naman yata yung nakikipaglaban siya sa mga hindi niya kilala para lang mahanap ang mahal niya! Parang ikaw, bestfriend kita at baliw ka na rin, nakikipaglaban ka para lang mahanap ang kakambal mo! Seriously? Bakit pinapaligiran ako ng mga baliw ngayon? Bakit ang nakikita ninyong solusyon ay ang sakitan at bakbakan? Alam niyo si Rizal, naging bayani yun dahil sumulat lang siya. Noli Me Tangere at El Filibusterismo. Walang dumanak na dugo, walang baril at bala  tanging papel at pluma!" bunganga agad ni Rafael ang narinig ko sa umaga ng gumising ako. 

"Rafael I don't need your opinion right now.." I need to prepare for my fight alone today. Alam ni Rafael na lumalaban ako pero he didn't know I fight in the underground kung saan ang mga kinamumuhian niyang tao ay nandoon. He disgust gangsters and when he know I am one, he will treat me like a disgusting thing too.  

"Tss! Zach! Yung girlfriend mo nag-aalala narin sayo! Ilang buwan na kayong hindi nag-uusap ha?" pag iintriga niya pero binablaewala ko. I'm sure she'd understand. "Total bullshit bruh" sabi niya at nag walk out na sa condo ko. I didn't bother to call him again, bahala siya. I don't want na mag-alala si Zoe sa akin. Hindi ko siya hahayaang makalapit muna sa akin dahil baka ikapahamak lang niya and I cannot let that to happen. Kailangan ko munang dumistansya sa aming relasyon for her sake. I love her and I can't let something bad happen to her because of my recklessness. 

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Napangisi ang gang na lalabanan ko ngayon. They saw me alone and I will fight them alone. I don't care what will happen after this. I rather die while fighting because I am searching for my twin than die because I was contented without her and haven't done anything to seek for her. 

"Alone?" tanong ng isang lalaki. All of them are boys actually but the guy who asked me has the authority and I want to believe that he is the gang leader. Tumango ako sa kanya.