For you

Poem 6: Regrets

I don't regret many things but to the things I do regret, there's a theme.

You were the answer to my dreams.

Every girl has a "dream guy" and you are mine.

I tried to make a list of things this "dream guy" would have then realized it was you that they defined.

I don't regret telling you I like you.

I don't regret saying, "It's you I choose."

I don't regret you being my first kiss.

Believe me, there's a lot more to this.

I don't regret any of the memories we shared.

But I have to admit it, now I'm scared.

You are my world and right now I feel lost.

I didn't realize my mistake would come at such a cost.

I don't know how to put into words my remorse.

You're my person, my source.

My source of comfort and joy,

And now people label me things like "your toy".

But they don't know about us.

All the love, all the hardships, and through it all the trust.

I don't regret how deeply I fell in love.

I swear to you this love is from above.

I do regret not telling you I love you more.

I regret not helping you out more or if talking to me seemed like a chore.

I regret not telling you sooner.

Maybe if I'd told you sooner and made you understand,

Maybe then, things could've gone as planned.

But it wasn't a plan, yet it wasn't a mistake.

It's like when you push on a pen and it breaks.

I regret not realizing our love was so tender.

I regret not kissing you that day when everything spun out of control like when you take the lid off a blender.

But it's in the last,

So that's what I regret, even though you never asked.

One last thing I regret,

This one, I promise, you shouldn't forget.

I regret not realizing you were struggling and hurt.

I did realize but just brushed it off of my skirt.

I wanted to deny it's presence and thought you would tell me.

So I acted normal and full of glee.

And now, here I am, left sore.

But I'd surely answer if you showed up at my door.

Don't forget,

Falling for you I don't regret.

For if I hadn't, I wouldn't have known trust happiness yet.

You are my happiness, don't you forget.

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A/N:

Wow. Well, I'm writing a lot more frequently because it seems to be the only thing I can do right. (Lol if I am even doing it right...) I've started adding songs or just pictures to the poems to make it more interesting. So, for this poem the song was "Everything I didn't say" by 5 sos because this is a poem about regret and that's for the most part what the song was about. thank you so much for reading. I know they're meh. And full of cheesiness. But it's how I'm venting for now. So I'm just going to go with it. Comments would be great! Let me know how I'm doing ☺

Love ya!
-Bella 😜.