For you

Poem 10: Hell to the No

It was always me.

I was what the problem was, is, or may be.

I pushed you into dangerous things,

You pushed back and fell, crashing.

And it's my fault, always me.

I don't know how to be normal I don't wear makeup or jewelry.

For the most part, I didn't have a mother.

You treated me like you were my older brother.

But I did you wrong.

I tried to put my words into a song.

But no words can express my deep dark remorse.

I'll never date again or "jump back on the horse."

You were my partner, my "trusty steed."

You were always there in my time of need.

But I let you down, down so low.

I crushed your smile like a toe.

I miss you now, and it hurts so bad.

I just cry, at what we had.

We had love at thirteen, that some people never know.

But now it's gone because I hurt you, and you fled to a different girl, someone new.

Now I'm almost eighteen, and I remember the first time,

I saw you smile, like the sun in summertime.

You have dimples, but only when you really smile.

Most don't see that now, they miss it by a mile.

What happened to our hopes, our dreams, our desires?

What happened to fighting hell's fires?

I won't ever let you go.

Because I won't break this promise, hell to the no.

If by chance in this life you forgive me,

I'll be waiting here for the rest of eternity.

I love you darling, I always will.

We'll meet again someday where I'll love you still.