I scream so loud I can't even hear my own voice,
I cry so hard regretting my choice.
It's crippling you see.
Pain not as easily described as 1 2 3.
It hurts to breath when you aren't breathing the same air.
It's hard but they say "life isn't fair".
Push for me!
Choose me over her or any other girl!
Not because I'm more pretty or sexy but because you're my pearl.
Because honestly she's much prettier than I.
Which is why I was so jealous when I first caught her eye.
She's the prettiest girl I've ever seen.
But I needed you so bad darling, so bad I would scream.
"Alex please save me!!!"
Another nightmare hit in the middle of the night. Like lightning that has just struck a tree.
I cry and I scream for you each night.
The worst part of it is, you're no where in sight.
If we talked again id tell you I'm great.
But that's a lie I tell everyone and it's something I hate.
I hate being fine when I feel like I'm dying.
For you I would have just kept on trying.
Look in the mirror.
Let's your cares disappear.
Eyes green as the sea.
Lips once perched into a smile for me.
But now I make you frown.
It makes me want to drown.
I love you so much it pinches and burns.
God dammit can you not see I'm torn?
I'm broken, you're mended.
I wish I never loved you and I'd only pretended.
Because I love you with every breath, muscle and cell.
But I feel like a wound that continues to swell.
You are my world, my entire soul.
Maybe that scares you but you make me whole.
I don't know darling, maybe one day we can talk.
I promise you I'll try my best not to stalk.
Goodbye my love until we meet once more.
Remember you can always show up at my door.
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A/N
Hey.....
So I was bored and decided to write again lol enjoy!!!!!!!
-B
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Non-FictionA collection of poems I wrote during and after my first relationship. I spent 5+ years working on this, and I apologize for any spelling/grammatical errors, but I wanted to leave everything as it was originally written.
