For you

Poem 29: If You Love Someone: Tell Them.

I did the hardest thing I've ever done tonight.

I let him go. Out of Sight,

But he isn't out of my mind.

I love him so much I had to spare him; try to be kind.

The only thing he's ever been to me.

I love him so much, it's like the first time you see.

Fresh snow, covering the desolate trees.

Beauty everywhere, yours brings me to my knees.

You are the kindest, strongest man I have ever met.

And it is you I could never forget.

So please, understand why I had to say goodbye.

I was left by a boy who only loved getting high.

Who convinced me the only way he wouldn't break up was with a mistake.

A mistake that struck me with days upon months upon a year of heartache.

The first day I met you, I knew I wouldn't soon forget.

It was the first day I didn't fret.

I let you go trying to be selfless.

I hope this doesn't find you feeling lifeless.

I have loved you from a distance.

When I'm around you it's hard to form a sentence.

But here's the thing I want you to remember.

On a Wednesday in a Cafe you set in my heart an ember.

An ember that started a wildfire of healing.

You gave me a whole "glued together" feeling.

I can't thank you enough for how you've changed me without even knowing.

I didn't want to tell you afraid of showing.

Showing that deep down I love you, but I want you to be happy.

Genuinely happy with someone who makes you laugh and isn't sappy.

Someone who is pure and has a heart of gold.

If by some chance you think this girl is me, I need to be told.

But if not, it's okay.

I'll keep my feelings at bay.

I sat in my car writing this, hoping, praying, you'll forgive me.

If I have given this to you so selfishly.

But someone once said, "If you love someone you tell them."

These are words I strive to live by so *ahem*

I. Love. You.

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If only I'd actually had the courage to say this 😔😣

Love you all!!!
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