For you

Poem 13: Amnesia

Drown my thoughts, please I beg you make me forget.

He doesn't seem bothered, he feels no regret.

I sit here and ponder just what life would be,

If only he hadn't given up on me.

But he gave up on me, so fast it seemed unreal.

I wish it was pain I never had to feel.

This must have all been in my head.

For if it wasn't, you would feel as I do, nearly dead.

I thought I found someone, but he let me go.

I still love you, and it really does show.

You don't even care about me, whether I live, whether I die.

But I'm so weak and broken, I can't even cry.

I wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget everything start a new.

Because I love you and I can't move on while remembering you.

You made me feel like a queen and held me close.

Until things got rough, when I needed you most.

I love you, is that so hard to believe?

Do you really hold yourself at that low level of esteem?

To me, you were my hero, my everything.

But you left me flat, reminding me, that in truth, I'm nothing.

You broke down my walls.

So I built them up higher and I'm avoiding all falls.

We went through things people our age never should,

But I thought we would make it out stronger, in fact I knew that we could.

But here I am, broken and alone.

Maybe I'd forget you if I were stoned.

It seemed to work for you,

So maybe it'd work for me too.

Because you said before you held onto hope,

But I, I have nothing, zilch, nope.

I can't talk to people because they don't understand,

What we had was real not some one night stand.

I really do love you, just so you know.

I honestly wish I could just let go.

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A/N:

Hey..

So I said I wouldn't update for a while but I have too much in my brain so yeah, I updated. :3 Lol thanks for all the reads!!!

-B