I've been shattered and I've been scarred.
But I don't know that I've been broken this far.
I can't even look myself in the mirror.
I've become someone that I greatly fear.
I used to think of the future, but that future was you.
Before my life was so simple, all I needed you helped me do.
But I made a choice and listen close,
I did it because I love you most.
I always knew I love you more.
I guess you asking if I was OK or saying "I love you" was only a chore.
Because never have I been this damaged.
I don't know that there's anything left to salvage.
You left so easily like the brain makes your body move.
Why am I so damn stupid, you win, I lose.
You were my drug, my glue, my person.
Maybe that's cliche, but darling, I'm hurtin'.
You breathe the smoke in deep and my smile fades.
The color of my eyes, to the way my hair cascades.
I feel so helpless, so lifeless, so wrong.
You were my anchor, what kept me so strong.
I pluck the strings hard fast, grit my teeth, please disapear.
But it doesn't, it won't, the smile on your face, that grin from ear to ear.
That's what breaks me apart like glass returning to sand.
I didn't mean to fall in love with you, that's what you don't understand.
But really, I'm stupid because after all,
Why the hell would you stick around to catch me when I fall?
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Authors note:
I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever. I just have been going through a lot to say the least. I'll try to update when I can, but school starts soon so I will probably try to get on a schedule of updating at least once every two weeks.
Thanks for reading!
-Bella
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Non-FictionA collection of poems I wrote during and after my first relationship. I spent 5+ years working on this, and I apologize for any spelling/grammatical errors, but I wanted to leave everything as it was originally written.
