For you

Poem 27: The three biggest words

"I hate you!" Your words come pouring into my head.

Could I have done this? Is it my fault?

I cry as I curl up in my bed.

You blocked me and deleted my number sealing a vault.

But not just any vault; your heart.

I replayed your words as I laid down to sleep.

But I was brought back to the start.

A little bold boy and a girl shy and sheepish.

But then the thunder arrived.

"You never loved me, that's just it."

You spat as I sank back into my shell; deprived.

Deprived of your love but tired of your shit.

Today, a new year but just another year without you.

This year we graduate.

I can't help but wonder, do you miss me too?

At the start of this year, I will not exaggerate.

I miss you more than I can put into words.

But yours keep ripping me apart.

Your words did more damage than any sword.

I remember thinking, "till death do us part."

But death wasn't the final nail in the coffin that holds your heart.

Rather it was life that ended everything.

On this topic, I don't even know where to start.

It was life that for me, I would've done anything.

But in the end, the three biggest words that closed off your heart,

Are the very words that continue to tear me apart.

Piece by piece, little by little.

It was the words, "You deserve better."

Maybe I did, maybe that's true.

But what I wanted so badly to scream was,

"I only had eyes for you."